phan oneshots

"i love you"

trigger warning: suicide

Phil hears a knock at his bedroom door, "Come in" he says

"I need to tell you something" Dan says,

Phil sets his laptop beside him, "Come sit, I have a thing I should probably tell you too."

Dan sits on the edge of Phil's bed, "Okay, on 3"

"3" they say together

Dan hopes Phil will say the same thing as him.

"2"

Dan begins to wonder if this was a mistake, this could be the end of their friendship.

"1"

No going back now.

"I have a girlfriend" Phil says

"I'm in love with you" Dan says quickly, you can tell by his voice that hes so nervous.

"You... what?" Phil says with wide eyes, shocked by the words that just escaped Dan's lips.

"I-I'm sorry" Dan rushes out of their apartment, not exactly sure where he was going, but he couldn't be there. Phil probably hated him, what kind of idiot falls in love with their best friend and then goes and tells them? Obviously Phil wasn't going to love him back, how could he be so stupid!

Phil still hasn't moved, his jaw is wide open in shock. He can't believe Dan just said that he loved him. It was like one of those creepy fanfictions had come to life and he didn't know what to do.

Phil finally snaps out of his thoughts, he had to go and find Dan before something bad happened. He puts an extra jacket, phone charger and a few snacks into a bag. Phil didn't know how long he would be gone or if Dan would be hungry. He puts on his shoes and a sweater so he won't get cold, Dan's sweater, to be exact.

Phil loved to wear Dan's sweaters, not because he was gay for him or something, he just smelled really nice! Besides, Phil was straight. Straight.

He starts to walk around, he didn't know where to start, hopefully Dan didn't go to far.

What kind of insane mess had they gotten into?

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Dan had been gone for about 3 hours, walking aimlessly, he was completely lost in his thoughts.

Nothing seemed worth it anymore, he lost his best friend and didn't have any contact with his family, they left him once he came out. He didn't have motivation for the things he loved anymore, not even YouTube. Nothing was worth it anymore.

Phil was Dan's only hope, his only reason. If he didn't have Phil then why was he still alive? Still wasting air on his useless, broken body?

Dan turned around and started walking home, knowing that Phil had probably gone looking for him and wouldn't be home for a long time.

He walked up the several flights of stairs, memories flooded back;

"Oh my god, why didn't we just hire someone to do this?!" Dan says, clearly annoyed but still smiling at Phil

"Because I want to get the best furniture! We'll have so much extra money because we didn't hire movers."