Through Hell &'d Back

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

“Look Harry. I get that you want to help, but it’s real hard for me to talk about this. It takes me a while to open up to people and I know that I can trust you but you have to understand that for me it’s not so easy. Please give me time and maybe I will be able to tell you.”

“I understand. Take your time. I just hope we can be friends and one day you can tell me what happened.”

“Me too Harry. Me too.” I said starting to walk away.

“Wait.” He said walking behind me.

“Yeah?”

“Can we talk about us?”

“There’s an us?”

“I don’t know. I have never stopped loving you and those months apart from you were hell. Believe it or not all I could ever do was think about you. I never wanted to break up and you know that but I also didn’t want to hurt you. I really want there to be an us. What about you?”

“Well, I never stopped loving you either, but right now I’m not ready. I really wish I was, but I’m not. I blew up on Liam and I really don’t want to keep doing that. Right now I have to look out for myself. Maybe when I get back to normal?”

“I’ll be waiting for you, and I’m not going to leave you alone through all of this.”

“Thank you Harry.”

He approached me and eliminated the space between us. Slowly he leaned down to kiss me. Our lips finally touched and our lips were in sync and perfect for each others. I then pulled away and slapped him and ran. I couldn’t help it. I hated how everything came back to me with just one touch or a kiss. I heard Harry running after me and yelling my name and telling me to stop. He finally caught up to me and made me stop.

“Jocelyn, what’s wrong?”

“I’m so sorry Harry. This is the reason why I don’t think we should be going out. I’m hurt and you don’t deserve to be on the other end of my pain.”

“It’s okay Jocelyn. I don’t know what happened and that won’t make me love you any less. That just make me want to be with you even more so I can help you. You’re not alone. You’ll never be alone.”

He wrapped me in his arms and I cried, I just cried. The bell rang and we were going to head to class but he stopped me.

“You want to get out of here? Maybe it’ll make you feel better.”

“Okay.” I said and followed him out of school.

I had never done anything like this but I know my mom will understand. She always supports me, especially now and I’m grateful for that. We drove to his house. It was just how I remembered it.

“Sit down.” He said patting the seat next to him on the couch.

I sat down and just took the time to look around. We had so many great memories here. We would sit on the couch, cuddle, and watch movies. We would talk, laugh and sometimes even cry. We talked about our future and how we would like it to be. Now everything had changed.

“Hey. What are you thinking about?”

“About all the different things we did here. I can’t believe how much things changed.”

“Me either. I never though things would turn out to be like this.”

“Yeah. I wish we could just go back to those times.”

“I don’t.”

“Why not?”

“Because I know that things had to happen for a reason, and I know that we will have a better future because of the things that happened.”

“I wish I could think the way you do.”

“Enough of this. Let’s do something fun. What do you want to do?”

“Can I just sleep? I’m tired.”

“Yeah, sure you can.”

“Thanks.”

“Do you want to sleep here or in my bedroom?”

“I’m fine here.”

“Okay. Anything you need just call okay?”

“Alright.”

After a while I was sound asleep. I fell asleep for 2 hours. I woke up due to my nightmare.

“Ahhh!” I yelled waking up.

“What’s wrong? What’s wrong? Are you okay?”

“I’m fine. Just had a nightmare that’s all.”

“Is it about…”

“Yeah.”

“Well don’t worry. You’re fine. Go back to sleep.”

“No. I’m alright. I better be going home now.”

“I’ll take you.”

He drove me home and when I got there I told my mom and she was fine with everything. I went up to my room, heard some music and fell back asleep.

*1 Month later*

The month went by really slow. Harry and I talked and after school he would always take me out to eat, to the movies, or somewhere so I could get distracted. Everything was like he had never left. He also helped me be able to spend time with guys without freaking out. I was really grateful to him. One day we were at the park walking around when my worst nightmare appeared.

“Hey Jocelyn.” a guy called.

I turned around and saw him. “Can we go Harry?” I said pulling on his wrist.

“What’s wrong?”

“Let’s just go. Please.”

“Why are you running away love?” The guy, Joseph, called after me.

“Leave me alone alright Joseph. Let’s go Harry.” I said and Harry finally came along.

“Who’s that guy?” He asked once we were in the car.

“He’s the reason for my nightmares.”

“What?!”

“Yeah. Can we just get out of here?”

“Okay.”

We got to my house and he parked in front of it.

“You want to come in? I really want to talk to you.”

“Sure. just for a while thought. I have to be home for dinner.”

“It won’t take long.”

We got out and headed inside my house.

“Hey mom. I’m home. Harry’s here. We’re going to talk in my room okay.”

“Alright hunny.”

We headed to my room and we sat on my bed.

“I’m ready.”

“Ready? Ready for what?”

“Ready to tell you.”

“You sure?”

“Positive.”

“Alright.”

“That day. That night you left me….”