Undefinable

CHAPTER 1

My heart was racing faster as i ran down an empty sidewalk, a man was chasing me ! All of my strength was on my feet as i forced my speed, i finally fell to the ground as the man approached me. He yanked my arm and brought me to his van, in panic i screamed the name of my best friend "Ashvey!! Ashvey!! Ash-" "Monica, wake up, wake up" i woke up, i was sweating as i dreamt of my horrifying past. 
I was in study hall and i must have fell asleep, "Are you okay?" Ashvey asked noticing my severe anxiety "Yeah, i , i just need a minute" i grabbed my bag and rushed myself to the school toilet. I placed my bag on the make up area as i sat on the side, i stared at the mirror thinking back on an incident which happened months ago and wasn't spoken about, i was almost kidnapped, yet abused by a man who i barely knew. i looked down and washed my face, i yanked out a few pieces of tissues and wiped my face.
"Monica?" Ashvey came in looking for me "Bad dream huh?" "Kinda" i said making my way to her, then out of the toilet. We talked our way to our lockers and got our books for the next class. 

Ashvey and i was walking down the hallway to class, bad luck striked, we bumped into Britney, the school meanie, the school bully, the rich kid who always has it her way, well, i'm sick of her.But i haven't said a word to her since she's the reason i have cuts on my wrist, and slashes on my thighs. "What the hell? are you blind or something?" Britney said as i stumbled back beside Ashvey, "It was a accident, get over it" Ashvey stood up for me like she always did, but i felt bad, i couldn't let my best friend get into a fight with the school bully because of me "I'm sorry, i, i'm sorry, its all my fault" "you bet it is, get some contacts, loser" Britney added as she walked away. I looked at Ashvey with a deep i'm sorry face and went straight to class.
We went our seperate way since we were placed to sit apart, i got my doodle pad out and started doodling words that made me feel bad about myself, 'loser' was written across the whole page as i made designs around it. 
i kept thinking about my mother at the same time, she's all i have besides my sister Amber, who's often with her boyfriend. Mom made me feel highly uncomfortable, she wasn't sick or anything, but she wasn't at home most of the time. She's always with her friends, partying late night was one of her things,and i wouldn't see her until the next morning, then she might leave the next noon. But she was still my mom and i still love her, i just missed the times we used to spend together before dad left.

My head was wrapped around thoughts about everything but what was going on in class, soon enough class ended, and it was time to get back home. Ashvey dropped me off since she had a car, i went inside the house noticing there was someone else besides Amber and mom. "I'll be back next week mom. Just gonna stay with Harry for a while." Amber told mom while wrapping her arms around her boyfriend. "Harry!" i said in excitement as i walked through the door, i was really close to Amber which explains my relationship with Harry. I gave him a hug as he messed up my hair, i really enjoyed that brotherly relationship i had with him since i never had a brother, he would often get me things i want and takes me along whenever he brings Amber out to the beach or non-personal movie dates.

"You'll be back next week?" Mom said reassuring her deal with Amber as Amber and Harry nodded along with mom's question. "Okay then." "Thank you mom, thank you so much, i love you" Amber hugged mom tightly before grabbing my hand and heading to her room with Harry. "You're moving out already?" i asked Amber, "Not really moving out, just staying with me for a week" Harry answered while Amber continued packing "Well, on our last day, Harry would pick you up then we could go for a movie or something, we could hang out!" Amber suggested, my sad face was then filled with excitement, Harry just silently laughed at my response.

Great, now i'm without company.

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