Am I still pretty?

Novemebr 6 2015

*November 6th 2015, the day flew by quick soon i went back to school and everything went downhill,well one elliot cheated on me with Ava smith that bitch, my best friend ella told a rumor that i stab my brother and that's how he died, and my mother won't talk to me. I slowly wake up and put on a pair of leggening and my school sweat shirt and walk down stairs
"Morning hun" my father says and hands me my lunch
"Morning" i say and grab a water from the fridge and leave the house. I walk to my car which is a bmw and put my book bag and gym bag in the passenger seat i run to the driver seat. Turning the car on and hooking my phone to the radio at the same time is harder than it looks. I put on the song "cancer" a cover from twenty one pilots and sing along pulling up to the dollar store i turn off the car and walk in
"Hi how are you" the lady smiles
"Good uh one dark coffee two equal" i say she nods and goes in the back to make it. As she gone i see all the cigarettes in a shelf they were pretty cheap.
"One dark coffee two equal is that it" she asked
" and one pack of newport" i say she nods
"I would need to see some id" she asked i nod and pull out my fake ID which we used to get into parties
"Ok that will be 10.75" she says i pay her and leave. As i exit the store i open the cigarettes and grab the lighter i keep in my bag. I lite the cigarette and sucked in it was like my body calmed down and everything seemed calm like i was away from the world. I finished the cigarette and throw it on the road and walked to my car putting the box of cigarettes in my bag.

School, i open the door grabbing my bag "boo" lillian screams scaring me
"Very funny" i laughed
"What's that smell" she sniffs "are you smoking" she asked
"Uh no my mom started smoking in the house again so i guess the smell just clicked to me" i shrug she nods and we walk to class.
As soon as i walk in the school i see Ava and elliot locking lips
"Ew" i say and look to lillian who talking to jimmy i join in their conversation before the bell ringed singling us to go to class.

lunch , i slowly sat in the courtyard i opened up the pack of cigarettes and took one out making sure no one looking
"Your kidding right" elliot said coming behind me
"What do you want" i asked putting the packet back in my bag
"Give me them now" he said
"No they're mine not yours i paid for them" i say and started getting up from my seat
"Don't smoke one promise me" he said his dark blue eyes shine
"Too late" i say and ran leaving him alone. I put my headphones in turning on the song "cancer" by twenty one pilots canceling the noise of the outside world
"Hey" a sudden voice comes behind me
"Uh hi" i said taking out my left ear bud so i can hear better
"Hey im levi i saw you have some cigarettes can i have one" he asked i nod and hand him one
"Thanks" he said and walked away to his group of friends
I nodded and placed the headphone back in my ear.