Silent Scream

Chapter 6: Regret

Arianas P.O.V

While I ran towards the elevator I heard Kaley yelling for me to turn back in the distance but I just couldn't.

I know you all think I left because I wanted the truth but honestly I don't want Kaley to have to put up with everything I go through she doesn't deserve that I can't have someone constantly worrying about me because I have to live a fake life on camera or in public.

The real me is behind the scenes and true Kaley knows about some of me behind the scenes but that still doesn't change the fact that my life will never change.

So, when I got into the elevator I could see Kaley face to face as our eyes met I tried to ignore the feeling I got by putting my head down until the doors finally closed.

When I got to the lobby I tried my hardest to catch up with Scooter once I approached him he asked" Ariana I thought you wanted to have your day off tonight?".

I said" No I think it's best I go back to LA now there's already so much work that needs to be done staying here was a mistake" he said" Ok I called us an uber it should be here any minute and we will be on our way to the Delta Airport".

With those words the uber pulled up and the driver opened the door for us as we slid right in we were on our way to the airport.

While Scooter tried to start a conversation with me about some new work we had to do I couldn't help but think about Kaley ugh I don't know why I can't stop thinking about her.

Not only that but my heart was racing I became light headed and sort of tingly finally Scooter said" Ariana were here" I flinched back into reality and said" oh alright" so I stepped out of the uber and headed inside the airport.

Scooter took care of everything as always and we got to our terminal waiting patiently for us to board the plane.

There was no paparazzi inside our terminal so that was a HUGE relief.

I began to think about What if Kaley shows up? What if this isn't the end? What if this? What if that? Ugh my brain was spinning with questions I continously asked myself.

So I started tapping my foot on the floor for the longest and of course there were some fans in the same terminal and they all kept trying to get my attention.

Scooter snapped in my face and I said" Oh I'm so sorry babes" all of them suggested we take pictures so that's exactly what we did.

Finally, they announced all first class passengers can now board so I followed Scooter onto the plane to our seats.

After everyone boarded and was seated one of the flight attendants announced" Ok everyone please make sure your on the right flight we are flying to Los Angeles California and we are ready for takeoff so stay seated at all times here we go thank you enjoy your flight!".

With that statement we took off and for the next 4 hours I decided u would just lay back an ld relax from all the constant chaos going on all around me lately.

As I closed my eyes I could see my future but it was a future with Kaley we were running in the meadow together through all kinds of beautiful blue and purple flowers surrounding us was the incredible nature with a waterfall in the rain.

I was deep into the dream until Scooter woke me up because apparently I slept the whole flight and we got off the plane and headed to our lemo.

I wanted to go home and rest but Scooter insisted we go by the studio so I can record my new collab with Troye Sivan he's a very talented young man I am stoked for our collab.

He also happened to mention" By the way while you were asleep during the flight I called Kaley and she will be coming to my office tomorrow evening!" I said" Wait I get to see her again?" He said" Yes why do you say that like your infatuated with her or something?".

I said" Oh no reason I just think that that's a great idea for her to be coming because we're good friends.." I couldn't have been more awkward and so obvious that I clearly think I'm falling for her.

I've never actually felt anything so real in my life especially towards a girl except Kaleys a dyke so if you think about she's sort of a guy just not with the parts but I honestly could care less what Kaley chooses to do with her life I will accept her no matter what.

Anyway, Scooter looked at me like he was confused but suspicious if that makes any sense so we pulled up to Republic Records and made our way inside and headed to the Record Room to meet up with Troye.

Scooter opened the door and there was Troye he said" Hi Ariana very nice to see you again it was absolutely splendid meeting you at the awards and now we're making a song together it's such an honor maybe we can be mates now" I replied" Aww of course we can buddy by the way your accent is on fleek" he chuckled.

Scooter said" Ok now that this conversation is done why don't you both head into the record room and I will help these guys with the sound and we will get started.

So me and Troye headed into the record room and Scooter said through the microphone" Ok so the song you both will record today is" Acceptance" Troye since your gay and Ariana since your brother is gay we will have you both sing about equality and the first and second verse have a sort of slow melody but the chorus and bridge have more of an upbeat sound ok ready 3, 2, 1, Start!".

Troye began to slay the first verse and I sort of listened to him but still couldn't shake the thought of Kaley I tried so hard to shake it off but no matter what I did I couldn't and by the time the chorus came up I said" I'm sorry I have to go" I then put down the headphones and ran out of the room to the bathroom and began to cry.

Troye knocked on the door and asked" May I come in?" I said" sure" and he stepped inside and said" What's wrong Ariana I may have only met you once before but your always so fearless when you perform so what's the problem is it a boy who broke your heart?" I said" No its not really a boy well she's a girl but looks and acts more like a charming guy".

Troye said" Oh I see so what happened with this mate?" I said" It wasn't her it was me I didn't want her to have to be apart of everything I go through we met at my meet & greet a few days ago and afterwards we ran into each other and we have this massive connection I don't know it's just complicated".

Troye said" Well what if she wants to risk being apart of everything I mean she knows your a celebrity so why would she not know what she would have to face being with you trust me if she really has feelings for you she will come for you" I said" Wow you seem to know a lot about complicated relationships" he said" Hey I may be gay but what can I say I'm a lover not a fighter man but we can both agree that I'm feminine af".

I laughed and said" That's ok my brother is too I just hate the fact that we can't always be who we wanna be just because we're famous" Troye said" Yes it blows but we do this for our dream and to inspire millions of people through our music it's what we do so dry those tears and let's go make some kick ass music and we can mope about our complicated relationships later".

I smiled and we made our way back into the Rec Room.

(To Be Continued)