Ok ok ok not that anyone is reading this or anything so I can update how often I like...... Even if that means updating as soon as I finish updating my last chappie. * sticks tounge out *
So mood swings.....We all have them.... depending on what's going on in our stressful busy lives we will all ho from feeling happy to sad to weepy to angry to joy....normal....right?
So why do people have a problem when we're all quiet and contemplating our decisions ..... why do they insist we talk.... We do t wanba talk!!!!!! We wanba stay in iur little coner and think and evaluate all the stupid mistakes we made that got us in to this stressful position in the first place so we don't make the same mistake again !!!!!! But being the human that we are we still make those mistakes but at least we think about it and try to refrain from making those mistakes!!!!!! Sigh
And then when we're euphoric people still have beef!!!! Why dont you take that beef and make a cheese burgur!!!!!!! ( quote from zajj112)
We're so happy were laughing telling jokes a bubble of happiness has exploded in us and filled us with warmth and giving us the false feeling that everthing is write in the world .... everything will be fine.... the world is filled with sunshine and rainbows*looks dreamly in to thin air* ok we may be jumping around as well and acting like a complete child which but that dosnt matter. ...We're happy ..... but we're still told were too loud..... were weird ...... why are we laughing and jumping so much.....
And then once the last of the explosive happiness leave our system the world turns grey.....so sad............and depressing...........again we sit quietly.....but this time we have a dark cloud hovering over our heads threatening to explode at any moment
.... We just want to be left alone in our misreble state but no.....people want us to talk. ....when we wanted to talk you ignored us...blanked us....when the world was a ray if sunshine you didn't want anything to do with and now when I don't have the energy to talk to you or go anywhere you insist I ho I ho out do work abd talk to you because that will make me feel better......no!no it will not!!!!!
What it will do is created a hot ball of fire in my chest that I will try oh so hard to control. ...because unlike the bubble of happiness this ball I'd fire ain't gonna explode. ... Instead am gonna keep it ...... It may be apparent on my face but am still not gonna unleash my fury.....conceal don't feel....stay in....Instead ill just do all sorts of things to you in my head.
And drink alot of cold water...
Then the cycle starts again. ...
Sigh so saaad
