Almost there

Part I- 18...

Ever found that the older you get the less your birthdays mean to you? Well with my 18th birthday I was way past that, I didn't even plan a party. My family didn't get behind it to much it was a very quite event with little celebration. The thing that made it stand out to me so much was my new job. This job wasn't just any job for me, it was the door to the world. 

Every kid has a dream of what their life will be like when they are older, super star, vet, postman. Well I just wanted to be like my dad, he had his life sorted from early on and I thought that was the best thing. He knew what he wanted to do and did that and loved it.

I just wanted every thing sorted to not mess around with 'figuring out me' and all that 'normal' stuff. Because Once you know what you want you have a path to follow, and I hate being lost. This job meant so much because like my dad I had stuff figured out early, and it meant that at 18 I was doing what I loved for pretty good money?

And what was I going to spend the money on? cars, makeup, travel? no well I don't know not yet, I don't know. And that's what I hate I have no path with which to follow, no sign that says this way ->.

I had though to save up and follow my other dream of outdoor education, but was that right. Or to save up for a house but I don't yet know where I want to be. So I figure Ill just save, but why would I have written about this just to come to this conclusion. 

When do you stop saving, or spending and when should every thing be worked out. Can you spend for ever just working and how to balance life and work. Because Life isn't all about following your dreams. What happens way in the future when your to old to work with no family and only you so life really, is it about now? or the future? If we are to care less we will miss out on both and have done nothing.