SpainXReader:||Forever and Always

Love is a Four Letter Word

~3 Months later~

You were laughing so hard your eyes were tearing up and you couldn't breath. You sat up and looked at Tony who was choking and patting his chest. "Hold on dork I'll get you some water." You ran to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle from the fridge quickly returning to the coughing spaniard how quickly downed it and gulped loudly. "Guah! Thank you! Damn that burned." you fell back holding your stomach trying to catch your breath. He just stared at you smiling.
"It was only a bit of ginger!"
"Yeah that's what I told myself before I chugged it!"
he looked up at the clock the back at you. "Hey let's go get some ice cream." You groaned and didn't mover your view from the ceiling. "Tony it's nine and i'm lazy!" you threw your arms up and let them drop back for emphasis. He grabbed your hands chuckling and pulled you up. "Oh come on you know you love ice cream~" he cooed in a convincing tone. You grunted knowing there was no use in arguing, once the stubborn man made up his mind there was no way out. "Fiiine let me grab my purse." He started pushing you towards the door. "Nah-uh nice try you know better." You laughed and rolled your head back so that it was pushed against his chest and he looked down into you (e/c) eyes with his bright orbs. A rose tint covered your cheeks and a warm smile took over his lips. You stood up straight and grabbed your jacket from the hook and slid it on.

"So baskin robins or brahms?" He asked once you were both in the car. You gave him a look that said 'really' you didn't even have to say anything and he knew. "Baskin Robins it is." you smiled and wrapped your arms around his bicep leaning your head on his arm and looking up at him batting you eyelashes quickly. "Aweeee you know me so wellll." He bit his bottom lip to keep from smiling a glanced out the side window before looking back at the road trying to avoid eye contact.
"Yeah I know I'm pretty amazing."
You nodded in agreement and sat up turning on the radio. You flipped through the channels that were mostly commercials in till you found on playin music. "Kill em with kindness" was playing and you were flipping your hair singing out loud with it and dancing around, Tony was trying to pretend to be annoyed but his face was getting as red as his tomatoes from laughing at you.
"I don't even think you need icecream."
he said shaking his head as he pulled into the parking lot. You shot him a glare. "Oh you dragged me out here you're getting me ice cream." You flipped your hair and stepped out of the car. He got out and quickly caught up with you. "You want your usually cake batter?" you nodded. "Okay well find us seats amor, i'll order since you're too shy." you sighed, he really did know you to well. You sat down by a big window and stared up at the stars and let your mind wonder. A few minutes later Antonio came over and handed you your cup and had a chocolate one for himself.
"What were you looking at amor?"
"The stars..."
you heard giggling and already knew what it was. Out of the corner of your eye you saw a few girls glancing at Tony. But when you looked at him, he was just staring at you with that dopey smile that you've come to love. You nodded towards the girls.
"You know you could get their number"
you took a bite from your ice cream and his smile slowly fell and he looked down stirring his ice cream around with his spoon shaking his head.
You would never admit to anybody, not even yourself but you always got a little jealous when other girls looked at Antonio. But more than that petty jealousy, you wanted Tony to be happy. And you knew that just couldn't happen with you.
You guys finished up your ice cream and got into the car. Tony still hadn't said a word to you. He hated when you brought up other girls, especially when he was taking you out to do something. You knew that you would feel awful if the night ended on a sour note because of you. "Hey...Tony?" he gripped the steering wheel tighter and you saw his jaw clench his eyes darted from the road to his window and back. You put your hand over his free one
"I was just wondering...if we could drive around a little?"
He blew air out of his mouth and ran his hand through his hair.
"Si, that's a good idea."
you smiled and rolled down the window leaning on the door letting the cool crisp wind blow your hair around. Late night drives always calmed you both down.
After what seemed forever of comfortable silence Antonio spoke.
"Oi chica,"
you hummed letting him know you were listening
"its getting late I should take you home."
You looked at the radio and saw that it was already ten fifty. You sighed rolling up your window and smiled.
"Yeah you're right, thanks for tonight Tony."
He smiled a little making you feel better.
"Anything for you amor..."
He pulled into your driveway and walked you to the door.
"Thank you again Tony, without you I would sit in my house alone most the time."
you let out a nervous laugh and looked up at him. You stood on your tippy toes and gave him a peck on the cheek and turned to walk inside but he grabbed your hands. You looked up into his bright eyes. His face was so close his breath tickled against your skin. He rubbed circles over the back of your hand his eyes shifting from your lips to your eyes every now and then. He brought one of your hands up and pressed it up to his chest. You could feel his heart pounding. He move his head so that his lips were near your ears and he spoke softly and low.
"You see what you do to me? Amor you know how I feel about you. You drive me crazy, all I want in this world is to be with you. Im in love you."
You knew that he loved you, but it was still shocking to hear him say that he was in love with you.
He looked down like he was embarrassed then suddenly looked up and pressed his soft lips against yours. You froze, your wide eyes staring at his thick lashed. You could feel his heartbeat speed up more. It took all your strength not to melt into the kiss. You felt him tilt his head trying to deepen the kiss and you pulled away. Tears fell slid down your cheek and silently dropped off your chin. The look on Antonio's face was a mix of hurt and guilt.
"I-I told you not t- you said you wouldn't fall in love with me." you stuttered out.
You turned away from him and unlocked your door. Your hands trembled as you tried to put the key in then finally twisted it.
"(Y/n) I'm sorry." His voice cracked and came out soft and raspy.
Hearing it made your heart feel like somebody squeezed it. You got the door open ad quickly entered. You barley made it to the living room before you just dropped to your butt behind the couch. You clawed at your chest. This is exactly what you were trying to avoid. This feeling. You put your face in your hands and tears streamed through your fingers. You didn't hold back the sobs anymore.
"You idiot.." You talked to the darkness in your house. "Why now, after all this...I thought he finally got it through his head..why did you choose now to be courageous?"
After what felt forever of you crying to yourself the door swung open and slammed shut making you jump. You didn't look up but you heard his shoes squeak then footsteps walking over to you. You looked through the cracks of your fingers and saw him on his knees in front of you. His eyes were red and swollen tears still streaming down his face
"At least tell me why (y/n)..I at least deserve that tell me why."
You threw your hands down and looked him in the eye.
"Antonio I have cancer!" you said a little more forceful than you meant to. He fell silent the only noise was his tears hitting the wood.
"Th-they said I stopped responding to treatment."
He shook his head looking down at the floor his hair was covering his face. His hands tightened into fists on his knees. "Why...why why why!" his voice was getting louder as he spoke. "Why didn't you tell me?!" He shot up and turned away from you running his hands over his face and through his hair tugging on it.You were shaking all over, you leaned forward onto your knees. You had a lump in your throat that was aching and making it hard to talk. "Because I didn't want you to treat me or see me different! I didn't want to be attached to anybody or anybody to be attached to me! I wanted to leave in peace but you came al-" you started to choke on your tears and you looked up and took a deep breath. "You came a long and changed everything!"
He turned to you and looked down, his eyes had softened. He reached down and grabbed your hands gently pulling you to your feet and brought you closer by your waist.
"That's what this was all about mi amor? You were waiting for a beautiful ending?"
You looked down wanting to shrink away. He tilted your chin up to look him in the eyes. He smiled through his tears and put his hands on your cheeks, wiping your tears away with his thumb.
"Why wait for a beautiful ending, when you can just live beautiful till the end?"
You smiled back and let out a choked laugh. You nodded putting your hands over his. He leaned in kissing you. This time you closed your eyes and let yourself melt into it. You slowly moved your hands down his arms then wrapped your arms around his neck. He pressed you closer to him, one hand on the back of your neck and the other at your waist. He's touch was gentle, as if you were a porcelain doll. He licked your bottom lip and you slowly parted them. His tongue slipped between your lips and grazed yours sending shivers down your spine and giving you goosebumps up your arms. He grabbed the back of your thighs and lifted you wrapping your legs around his waist holding you up by your butt. You cupped his face and kissed him back, your tongues dancing. He slowly pulled away, your noses were still touching. You couldn't stop smiling being with him just felt right. You rubbed your thumb against his cheek and he looked up into your eyes biting his lip. He gave you another peck on the lips. You let your arms lay on his shoulders and you two just stayed there like that for a while. Finally Antonio broke the silence. His voice was soft and quiet.
"Mi amor...you must be exhausted." he gently brushed some of your hair out of your face to behind your ear and you nodded laying your head on his shoulder.
It was nearly one in the morning. You hadn't been up so late in what seemed forever. He carried you through the house to your bedroom and layed you down. You slid your jeans off under the covers and he handed you a pair of short that you slipped on. He smiled at your small frame wrapped up in the blankets and leaned down kissing your forehead.
"Goodnight bonita~"
he turned and started to walk away but you jumped up and stumbled grabbing the back of his shirt.
"No...I mean...please stay?" you asked nearly whining as you pressed your forehead against his back. You felt his back vibrate as he chuckled and turned around leading you back to the bed.
"I guess one night won't hurt, it is late." You smiled and climbed back into bed while he slipped off his jeans and took off his button up shirt, leaving him in just his boxers.
He climbed in on the other side of the bed but quickly took his place next to you. You turned burying your head into his chest, the smell of his cologne soothing you. It was weird to have somebody there for you. Different, in a good way. A great way.

(A/N) Hey guys it's been awhile!!! I just thought I'd say I hope you guys are liking what your reading and please please please give me feed back! As always

Stay smexy ~Kitteh