the Secret LOVE Of...

chapter 1

Chapter 1
I'm sorry Anna, but I just don't love you anymore! I kept hearing that horrible words playing over and over in my head. I hate him for doing that to me. Yes I'm hurt, upset and embarrassed but I have learned to not show any emotion towards people who hurt have hurt you.

My name is Anna Brown. I'm 16 years old and I'm a 9th grader. I'm not popular, I'm just an ordinary girl, who was looking for that teenage love that everyone seemed to have. But sadly my heart was always broken by the guys I thought I love. I think the biggest part of why my relationships never worked is because of my Dad. I was never allowed to date a guy, my dad use to tell me that he wanted all my attention on my school work and not on some boy. So I'm actually only allowed to date after I graduated from school, but as the rebel I am, all my relationships was in secret.

After the breakup I decided that enough is enough, that I must stop looking for love. Everyone use to tell me that love will come to me an I must stop looking for it but just to tell the truth I have given up on love. I think love is only a word that people use to get what they want. I started drinking, smoking and experimenting with drugs, it was keeping my mind from wondering from what if's and it was helping me to forget about the pain and hurt, well in a way at least. My life was spinning out of control and I didn't know how to get my life back. I was drowning!

At a point I didn't even care who I hurt, its like I cut myself of from hurt and the pain. I knew when I started hurting the people I love, my friends, my family, the more I hurt myself and with that everything became to much so I was shutting down completely.

I became the person I never wanted to be, the bitch. Deep down I wanted to escape from her but there was no way out. I was stuck!

Days became weeks and weeks became months that have passed. Before I know it, it was a beginning of a new year. I made some new friends and I started to hang with them more. One of my friends name is Coleen. She is an amazing young girl who were in the same position as I am. Unfortunately she encountered many losses in her life but I'm not going to get into that. I think Coleen and I clicked from the start because we are in most ways similar. Then there is Lolla, she is always organized and very busy. To hang with her you need to make plans with her like a week before the time. So I mostly spent all of my time with them.

I hated it when my parents use to force me to go everywhere, but I also understood that I'm still living in their house so I had to do what they say.

One Sunday in February, as normal we went to church. I had some church friends and went out sometimes with them. Little did I know that from this Sunday my life would slowly but surely change.
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I'm sorry guys I know it's a little rough around the edges, this is my first book I'm writing and as you know it, it's based on my life. I know this Chapter was mostly in the past tense but only because all of this happened a few years back, more like 4 years. I think this book will be mostly in the past, to write it in the present will take allot of time and it will take to long to even get to the real story. I'm scared that if I take to long to get the point, readers might get board like I do by some stories.
But anyway hope you guys love this and for any suggestions please comment. Happy reading guys.