The Lucky Ones

Chapter 2: Trying To Forget

                  Some people may think this is easy, but I have news for those people. This is the hardest thing I have had to do. Trying to forget, to erase the memory. I don't know if I can do it. I love him. To forget how happy he made me, how hurt I'd still be if I never met him. I just can't do it.
               Tanner has been trying to help the way he looks at me tho it's as if I'm broken, as if I am fragile like I am going to break into a million pieces at any moment. I hate that look it's the same one people gave me when my mom passed. The only person who did not look at me like that was Ty.
              I have to forget soon it's not good for me to want him so badly. To look for him in everyone I talk too, to some how see his face everywhere. I want his hugs so badly. I want to walk down this hall and have him pull me into one of his strong, heartfelt, amazing hugs. I need him to say he loves me more then anything but it will never happen.
                Tanner looked at me like he has been since the day I broke down in art. Spells and I were sitting together at lunch. "Why does he keep looking at me like that?" I ask. "He wants to help but he knows he can't." she replies. "But that look, I hate it, I need him to look at me normally." "He can't do that until he helps you." I sigh.
               Tanner walks up to me. "Hey, Amelia." "Hey, Tanner." I looked up at him his eyes are the same color as Ty's, but the eyed are different. Tanner's have list and hurt in them, Ty's always had a look of happiness, like they had a glow in them. "What's wrong, Tanner?" "Nothing, I just thought I'd check up on you." He replies. "I'm okay Tanner, I just miss him." I told him honestly. He hugs me "I know you do, but trust me I will do everything in my power to make you happy like he did." I sighed. "I know, I'm sorry I did this, I just can't help it anymore." I don't want have him see me like this.
         I can't help it tho. I am hurt and I'm not that good at hiding it. I can laugh and smile but anyone that knows me with Ty will know it's fake. Tanner is trying which makes me kinda happy, but it's not that easy. I need Ty.
               "Tanner do you know when he will be coming home?" I asked. "Homecoming week, why?" "So, next week? I need to see him but he can't know I went for that reason." "I could help you with that, we are having a family dinner to welcome him back." "No, you don't have to do that." "I want too." "Okay, if you want to then you can, but I am not trying to make you." "I know, but I have been trying to find a way to help." I nod. " Okay, what would be the excuse?" "Well, I invited you because I wanted you to be there and you agreed to go for me." "Okay, thank you Tanner." "Any time."
          I personally love how much he seems to care. If this all is real. I don't know what I will do. I mean I will always love Ty, but if he doesn't love me I will have to move on at some point.