If only he knew

Chapter 1

Eren's P.O.V

All I could thing of was him. If he hadn't flown in on his 3DMG gear I would've died. I know I could've transformed but that would mean getting out of the titan's grip.

I know it's wrong for me to be thinking of him in that way, he's my superior. It's absurd! I know he's straight and would never date a guy but there's always hope. The hope that he may be gay or bi, but there's a slim chance of that.

I just hope this feeling goes away soon. If it doesn't, I'll just have to tell him and hope I don't get a big punishment. Even though I can't help how I feel. It's not like I'd try something, I wouldn't have the courage to.

I'm not like Jean who will stop at nothing to try and get Mikasa to go out with him, even though she's made it perfectly clear she's not interested. Everyone knows Mikasa likes me and I think that's the main reason Jean hates me. I couldn't date Mikasa, if we broke up it would ruin our friendship and I don't want that to happen.

Everyone knows who likes Heichou, it's obvious. She blushes when we mention him and when we ask he if she'd date him she blushes and stutters, any girl would be lucky to be with him. He's just so perfect, shit what am I thinking it wouldn't be right if we were together, he's too good for me... or is he?

I'm suddenly pulled out of my thoughts as  I see Petra run past me, heading to Heichou's office I'm guessing. That's when I realised I'd been stood in the hall for around an hour thinking about him, fantasising about our life together (not that it would ever happen). As I walked towards the mess hall Mika pulled me to the side and asked:

"What's up with you? You were stood in the hall for an hour earlier and all you did was stare at the wall.". I thought for a second about what I was going to say, but was distracted by a pair of steel grey, emotionless eyes staring my way. Our eyes met and all I could do was stare longingly into his grey orbs and hope Mika didn't notice, she did and when she did she shot him a cold glare as if to warn him off. Hopefully it didn't work. I really wanna date him but that'll be impossible.