The Vapor

October 16,2016( For you, Annabeth)

Yesterday was the last day of Cheerleading and watching Nathan failing terribly at football. I don't think that was his sport, he ran around like a fairy. Of course when he got hurt on the field a part of me felt pain in my stomach. Not butterflies but it felt like a hammer hitting it and my heart racing. Maybe a part of me still cares. Last night my friends, the football players, and the paretns were all in a big circle i am laughing, smiling and i look over and Mrs. Campbell ,his mom, is looking at me smiling away like she had no clue who i was.

Last month i found out my best friend and my neighbor Annabeth is moving. Only 5 minutes away of course. I have been feeling this way for a while now. I will be sad that she is leaving and i can't go running up to her house and ask her to come outside anymore. I'm happy she can go somewhere and start fresh with her friends and family by her side without Nathan putting snakes in her mailbox. You have a chance to get him out of your life. If he doesn't know where you are, no trouble will be found.  This is my future home and if he still treats me like this well i guess that's forever too. 

I think that next time he starts being a jerk to me and pushing me around i will finally ask him the question i have been wanting to ask him for a while since the vaping thing.

Why do you keep doing this? This isn't going anywhere. If you hate me that is your choice. I want is us to find somewhere in our hearts to forgive each other and maybe in the end start new or never talk to each other again. 

But now knowing the girl who helped me get through this is not next door anymore  when he is near is gonna change how  i will act around him. 

( Dear, Annabeth i know you are reading this but i will miss being next door to you when u move. I wanted you to know what i am thinking about Nathan through something you love the most in the world what got you threw rough time................. reading. Love Jenna )