A Dream Of A Teen Age Girl

Part Five

     Two weeks later...

I was still upset. Papaw was gone and he was the only father figure I had for years and years.

I was doing okay but I blocked off everything. I didn't want to think of him as dead but things around the house were upsetting. Claudia was depressed and felt that no one understood her. I tried to I really did.

She eventually stopped talking to me. It was sad but I just thought that she needed time to grieve... I was wrong.

She tried to commit suicide. I had a feeling that something was wrong and i went into her room. She have letters on her dresser and a bottle of pills and a drink in her both her hands... I slapped her so hard.

I slapped her so hard she went unconscious. I cried for so long but I refused to tell my mom. I burned the letters as well. It was that moment that I realized that I could barely take it myself and the only things that was helping me was the fact that I made promises... promises that I had to keep.

In accordance to my living promises I decided to cut instead. When i started I couldn't stop. It was hard and no one could help me... i felt alone.

Soon after I relized that I wasnt alone but I had my people to help. I kept putting my feelings and emotions aside to help them.

They needed me more. I acted like I wasn't broken. I lied to them. I put on a mask with a painted smile. I needed to keep them happy...