Toxic Love{Completed}

Chapter 7

After eating, Hov and Sasha started to see the traffic die down. "Now we're talking, if we can weave through traffic fast enough, we can get to New York by midnight. "Midnight! What...why...how", Sasha's mouth was wide open.  "Yeah, I said New York", he replied, smiling. She frowned slightly. "Come on Baby, don't do that", Hov pulled up to a stop light. It was red. He leaned over and kissed Sasha on the cheek, "Do you trust me?", he brushed her hair out of her face, she looked at him. Hov kissed her on the lips, "I won't let you down", Sasha nodded, tears in her eyes, "Hov, I think I need to tell you some things."
"Ok, Shoot", Hov said jokingly. Sasha sighed before saying, "It's about my dad, I want you to know some of the things he did to me, I mean, why I'm scared of the dark. You've stayed by my side since senior year, and I know I can trust you", the light turned green and Hov drove off. "I got my first period when I was 10 1/2, it was just spotting, but still...anyway, I started to develop the year after and my mom and dad had started being more distant with each other. So, mom sometimes had people over when dad was at work, and it shocked me, but he never did. I found out later why", tears started streaming down her face, "Some time after that, my dad started coming into my room at night, he wouldn't do anything, he would just stand there, but it was dark and I wouldn't be able to see his face. I started to get used to it, sort of. Until he started holding me while I slept, not that I complained, it was nice, but sometimes he would do things to me, and it made me hurt"
Hov glanced over at her, "Hurt how?", he felt guilty asking, but he didn't wanna assume. She wiped the tears from her face, "He started touching me, sometimes on top of my clothes, sometimes under", Hov instantly got angry, "What?! Hell no!", Sasha continued, "One time, he told me he wasn't gonna do it anymore, and for a week, he didn't. But, after that week, he started beating me. I didn't know why, I thought I was doing something wrong. He waited until midnight, and it was dark, and..." Sasha closed her eyes tightly, she was still crying, "He said it was because I was seducing him", her voice started to break, "And sometimes, i just felt numb, and I didn't feel the pain until the next day. Sometimes it was a belt, or a pillow, or his fists, sometimes, he used towels, but I remember the last night he did it though, I slapped him, and I scratched him", Hov nodded, "He still has a scar." "Yeah", Sasha replied "That's when he threw me out, told mom I was flirting with him. And she believed that bastard. After some time, I just wanted to give up, I didn't eat for almost 5 days" Hov frowned, "Baby, that wasn't healthy." Sasha ignored what he said and continued,"Then  I met you, and after that I felt better", she smiled through her tears, "You gave me life again. The truth is Hov, I need you." Hov pulled over to a gas station, he looked over at Sasha, hugging her, and even though her eyes and cheeks were red from crying, she looked a lot calmer than last night. Hov frowned, "But babe, whenever we have sex, you tell me to be rough, so..."
"That's different, its consensual, and I trust you", she added softly," I love you", Hov kissed her forehead, "I will always love you Bey", Sasha was shocked, they never used each others real name. "Thanks Jay", Hov kissed her on the cheek, then he got out and paid for about a half a tank of gas. He came back to the car, he pumped the gas and got his receipt. Hov eyed the store carefully, he looked at Sasha, "You thinkin what I'm thinkin babe?", Sasha smiled slyly, "Yes, but no"
"Huh?", Hov said, confused
"If we pull any slick shit, we're good as caught", Hov was impressed, Sasha was starting to learn nicely, "Yeah, you're right", he pulled back out into the traffic, taking the exit for New York. Sasha watched as he drove through the traffic, at first being subtle, but after some time he started to weave through the cars, the muscles in his muscles started to flex some as he focused intently on the road. Sasha licked her lips before catching herself, "Damn", she whispered. "What's wrong bae?", Hov asked, concerned. Sasha started to blush, she flipped her hair trying to hide it, "Nothing, I guess I'm kinda excited, new city and more we can do together", she looked towards the road,her mind still racing, she was so deeply in love with this man it bothered her. 'Can I really trust him?'
Surely any doubt left her mind when she heard what Hov said next, 'Baby, I  just wanted you to know, my love for you, its something that's still new to me. I mean, in senior year, I was young and stupid, and I know there was alot of times I hurt you, and I'm sorry. But, when we get to New York, I wanna show you something that I've been working on", Sasha's eyes got big, Was he...nah. She looked out of the window, a smile spread across her face, for once, she actually felt happy.