October 18, 2016
12:09 a.m
My thoughts are free to go anywhere. But it's amazing how often they head into your direction.
Eto nanaman ako.
Iniisip nanaman kita.
Is it wrong...
Is it wrong for me to wish that you would want to talk to me as much as I want to talk to you?
4:50 p.m
I really don't get myself kung bakit I still hope na kausapin mo ko kahit na alam ko namang wala kang kailangang sabihin sa akin.
Ganito lang ata talaga ko ka-eager na makausap ka kasi the truth is...
I miss those times na hanggang madaling araw magkausap tayo.
And every minute I would know something new about you.
Siguro nga yan talaga yung dahilan.
6:53 p.m
There are times when I don't get some ideas governing love.
Like on how it is nearly impossible to find a person with the same level of loyalty and interest as yours.
I thought everything will be fine. Lalo na ngayon na nagkakamabutihan na kayo ni fafa G.
And then suddenly, everything seemed crashing down.
Literally, everything.
Bakit ba kayong mga lalaki, ang dali lang sainyong magbitaw ng mga salitang alam niyong makakasakit sa aming mga babae?
I try my best to understand your point, but then I can't help but think if it really is an enough reason to give up on someone you love?
Yes, I know.
Time will come and you would have to leave her pero don't you think it would be better if it doesn't have to end this way?
Na sa huli pwede naman kayong mangako sa isa't isa na when the right time comes for the both of you, itutuloy niyo kung ano man yung naumpisahan niyo ngayon?
It really is ironic.
Love, life, everything is ironic.
The thing is, kaya tayo nasasaktan is because we don't love the person who loves us, but we love the person who can't love us.
Why do love has to be this way?
Like on how some people are driven to hide feelings in order to not lose a friendship.
I would be honest.
If she really is your friend, she would understand.
And not think of you as a traitor neither an enemy because of what you might have done.
We humans, are capable of having feelings toward someone who we think we share some 'sparks' with.
Because when we love, we love.
No matter the time and the date.
Madalas hindi maiwasan.
I salute you for telling the truth.
I salute you for having the courage and the will to choose your bestfriend over someone whom you just met but you felt those sparks with.
But I do hope that you would never regret your decision.
'Cause once it's done, it is done.
But for me, if someone really treats you as precious as you are to them, no matter what happens, as a friend they must be there to support.
Not to make you choose and burden all the pain you must be feeling.
Everytime I look at your eyes I see a hint of sadness, and pain.
Either way, masasaktan at masasaktan pa rin tayo sa mga ginagawa nating decisions in life.
We just have to be strong enough and endure everything for us to live the life we have.
Kailangan lang nating siguraduhin na yung pain na mararamdaman natin is worth it till the end.
