Octetber 19, 2016
1:31 a.m
The one thing I know for sure is that feelings are rarely mutual.
So when they are, drop everything.
Forget expectations.
Forget the games.
The 'two days before reply'.
Because this is it.
This is what the entire world is after and you've stumbled upon it by chance.
So take a deep breath, and take a step forward.
After two days, you finally messaged me again.
And hell, nothing could take away my smile.
Masama bang i-assume na namiss mo ako kahit konti lang?
Akala ko, nakalimutan mo na ko.
Na parang wala lang, back to paggiging civil classmates na ulit.
Na kakausapin mo lang if ever importante yung sasabihin but not as friends.
But the moment you replied,
It's like my whole world stoped.
Siguro I'm kinda overreacting to something like this but can you blame me?
I finally admit it.
That I like how your personality lingers with mine.
As if your thoughts were exclusively existing just to take away my sanity.
I like it when you explain to me the concept of your life and as to how your eyes dazzle everytime it met mine.
I like the way you see me, as to what I wish I am.
But then.
After admitting all of these, I realized that one thing is for sure.
I still like the other J too.
Ganito ata talaga pag single, madaming crush letse.
9:46 p.m
Kanina while I'm waiting for a ride with my guy friends I saw you looking at me sternly.
Hindi ako makakilos na maayos kasi ramdam ko yung titig mo kahit na may ibang kumakausap sayo.
Why do you look at me like that?
Parang nanghihigop yung mata mo.
And so something started panicking inside me.
All the butterflies in my stomach are pretty much disturbed by your prescence.
I tried to avoid your gaze.
But I still find myslef looking back at you again and smile.
You seemed confused kung bakit ako ngumiti but then you still managed to smile back.
Akala ko susungitan mo ko eh.
11:38 p.m
What if you knew about this?
Would something change with the way you talk to me?
Iiwasan mo kaya ako?
Siguro nga.
Kaya mas mabuti nalang siguro kung itatago ko nalang to.
