Save me from myself.

Chapter 5: Scars are beautiful

I hear someone came in my house. I don't know who it is, but Harry is still in my house. I'm safe. Wait, I hear someone run up stairs. It comes closer, closer and closer to me. I feel arms around me.

"It's okay, I'm here."

"These broken hands of mine, I can't do one thing right."

"Darling, I'm here. You're safe. I won't leave you like ever again. I would never leave you alone. You're my princess."

"Zayn, how did you know?"

"Harry called me. I came running, because my car is at the garage."

"I love you."

"I love you more."

"I love you most."

He kisses my neck. He grabs my wrists and kisses them. I started crying again.

"It's okay."

I'm alone. Mom send Zayn and Harry home. She doesn't know. I will just sleep for the rest of the day. I won't eat, because I'm too fat. I fall asleep. Finally, no worries or pain anymore. Dreams are the best. Away from the reality. Living in my fantasy where I am pretty. Where I am perfect. Where I am scar free. Where I am thin.

I hear someone in my room.

"Honey, your breakfast is here. I'm off to work. Don't forget to go to school, please. I love you."

I'm alone again. Finally, I will just sleep for 5 more minutes.

*Ding dong*

"What! Who is that? Omg, it's like...HOLY CRAP IT'S 11 AM AM I  TOO LATE AGAIN!?"

I run to the frontdoor. 

"Hi, guys. I'm just a little late."

"We come in."

"Why did you skip the first hours?"

"Harry, I'm sorry. I forgot the time."

"I called you for like 50 times, I should pick you up for school and Zayn should bring you home. We were worried."

"You don't have to worry, I'm okay. Seriously, I planned to go to school. But I fell asleep again. I'm sorry."

"Hurry babe, you still can make it. If I can drive, because Harry drives very slow."

I ran upstairs took my shortest shower ever, I ignored the pain of my cuts. I did my make-up and my hair.

"I'm ready."

Once we arrived at school, the whole school looked at me.

"Why are they looking at me?"

"I don't know."

"Guys, I'm scared. I want to go home, now."

Alli walks by.

"Hey Demi, are you okay? I heard about your cutting. You could tell me. I'm here for you."

I look at Harry and Zayn. I look at Alli.

"Who told you?"

"Demi, everyone is talking about it. People say you wanted to kill yourself or that you died last night.. Do you want me to introduce me to your cute friends?"

"Uhm, this is Zayn and this is Harry. They were in our class since first grade of primary school. How can you not know them? Yeah, thought so. I gotta go."

"Wait, we are friends right?"

I walked away, once again. I hear Harry and Zayn calling out my name. I went to the bathroom. They can't find me here. I cried.

"Demi, it's me Miley. Are you okay?" I didn't answer.

"Look, I know you cut yourself. I know you've been judged and you miss dad. I know, because I miss dad too. I know you miss your friends. I know this, because I'm your sister. Come out, please?"

I didn't want to come out. I'm fine.

"I'm fine, can you leave?"

"Demi, don't lie. You're not fine at all." She opened the door, I don't know how. She saw me crying. I saw her tears.

"I know you're crying every night. I know your mom cries every night. I know because I see the tracks of your tears." I couldn't bring out a thing. We hugged eachother.

After a while we came out and looked at the mirror. Miley stood right behind me and pulled my hair to my back. We had eyecontact via the mirror.

"I love you."

I only could smile to her. It was a fake smile.

"Look at me." I did what I was told. She did my make-up right.

"Ready?"

"Ready."

Miley went back to her class. I didn't feel like class. I went to the office and locked the door. I put the microphone on. Now everybody could hear me.

"I'm Demi Lovato, I'm your schoolmate. Well, I'm not your mate, because I don't have a lot of friends. I'm sorry to interrupt you guys from your fantastic class, but I really need to tell you a few things. I have been judged. I have been hurt, by you all. Yes, I cut myself. Yes, I wanted to kill myself last night. Yes, I died last night, from the inside.Yes, I am ugly."

I stopped. I hear someone knocking at the door. I will just ignore them. 

"Yes, I am fat. Yes, I am dumb. Yes, I am useless, worthless, not perfect, annoying and all the things you've called me. I'm sorry for being me and being alive. No wait, I'm not myself and that's also because of you all. Scars are beautiful, they stand for a story and this is my story."

I felt a tear on my cheek.

"I don't have a good self-esteem at all. I'm real emotional, not because my dad, my brother and my friends died or dissapeard. No, I blame it on all your mental jokes. Even teachers bully me, because I am different. I can't help it to cry every night, to hear my mom crying every night. But I thank you, mates. I thank you for making me feel alive."

I stopped and hear the last word in the school. It was all silent in the whole school. 

I went out of the office and saw there Harry, Zayn and Miley.

"I'm sorry."

They just hugged me, I couldn't wish for better friends. I saw Alli. She came to us.

"Hi, I'm sorry."

"For what? For cutting? For my sucidal thoughts? For my dead father? For my dead brother? For my dead friends? For my disseapering friend? For being judged, hated or whatever?"

"For not being a friend for you. I should've called you at night. I should've asked. I should've known where your family was. I should have..."

I looked at her, I felt sorry for her.

"I'm sorry for being a bitch, Alli."

I hugged her. 

"Attention-seeker, whore, slut."

I didn't recognize the voice.

Zayn immediatly was focused on this guy.

"What you say?"

"I said, attention-seeker, whore and slut. Maybe you should've found the lost bullets in your body, warchild."

I've never seen Zayn mad.

"You don't..."

Zayn stopped Harry.

"Harry, don't waste your breath. Get Demi out of here, I don't want her to see this."

Zayn punched the guy and they got into a huge fight. Miley and Alli got me out of there. Harry would take care of Zayn.

"Demi, we bring you home okay? It has been enough for today."

"Miley, serious. I am fine. I don't want to go home either."

"We can go to my house."

I knew that Alli has a brother, Cody. Miley has a crush on him, since she first saw him.