:// I really just,, wanna be independent in my house. I wanna be myself but I can't at all. I just,, wanna have my own room and creativity without people blandly pointing out flaws and making me doubt myself
On another note??? I feel like a second choice most of the time when I'm around people I really wanna be friends with. I can't stand my friends,,
but,, the people I want to be friends with always leave me in the dust for their other friends, even though they know me well?? I just really want to get to know them more, since they're the only decent people in this school. I can't though, and I just can't help thinking that I don't matter to them as much as they matter to me. They have better friends than me anyways.
I don't know how to feel about the school anymore. most of the people there hate me tbh and I'm still indecisive on whether it fazes me or not
I hate being pulled behind on the things I want because of other people, I just wanna be myself every now and then
