As long as I can remember

Ex bestfriend and humiliation.

We pull into the school parking lot.
"Are you okay Alex?"
"Yeah, I'm alright"
"You sure?"
"Yeah I'm sure, I see hanna staring at me so I should go"
"Okay, have a good day " he says with a worried type of smile.
"I will, and we are going to muck the stalls out together after school right?"
"Yes Alexis, now go see hanna."
"Okay okay. Bye tob" I say with a smile.

I open the door and start walking toward hanna, I hear Toby drive away, I'm here for the day. At least I have my friend. I walk over to Hanna and out of corner of my eye I see brad just a few feet away from Hanna and I froze. Hannah looks at me.
"Are you okay?"
"Oh yeah, I'm fine."
"Okay"
We stood there for what felt like a few minutes and the bell rang.
"Well I should go"
Okay, yeah me too, bye"
She goes and walks right over to.. Brad and his friends!? She says something and they all laugh and she looks back at me and smiles. Like not a nice smile either. What is going on? Didn't she hear? Must not have. I'll explain later and she'll never go near them again. I head to my first class.

The bell rings for recess. I walk outta my class taking to a girl I knew named Rachel, a gorgeous girl with dark brown hair and light light blue eyes. She's the prettiest person I've ever seen. We were best friends not last year but the year before cuz we were in all the same classes but last year we had none but this year we have all the same classes again. So we became good friends again, and she has a horse too, hawk.
I see Hanna again, but she's with Bryce and brad. Do I decide to wait till they leave. I stood and talked with Rachel for a few minutes till I saw Hanna was alone so I said 1 minute to Rachel and walked over. "Hey, why are you with brad and his friends? Didn't you hear what they did to me?"
"Oh Alexis stop lying to everyone, spreading rumours is bad you know. " she said snarling like a dog.
"What are you talking about? I haven't told anyone. And it's not a rumour, they did do it."
"Brad is like the sweetest guy, he wouldn't do anything like that, ever"
I looked her up and down and that's when I noticed. She was wearing short shorts and a crop top, something she would never where, but something brad would pick out. "Are you, dating brad?"
"Yeah, sorry Alex, he's not in to hoes like you, so now if you'd kindly fuck off and not talk to me, that would be great" she smiles and walks away and kisses brad, says something and they all laugh and look at me.
The bell rang and I ran to my class, tears were starting to build, I wiped my eyes quickly and walked into class. The bell rang for lunch.

I decide to stay with Rachel for lunch hour, we say there and talked about memories we had when we where best friends.
" remember when we were taking cinch and hawk for a ride and that frog went in front of us and scared cinch and he. Starting galloping? " she said while dying of laughter.
"O my god yes, I could barely hold on when he started jumping over those logs in the way." We laughed at that for a few minutes " we need to do that again sometime, minus the frog and the surprise log jumping of course"
"Yes we do" I say laughing.
I'm gonna go get a juice from the vending machine, wanna come? "
"No I'm alright, thank you tho Alexis."
I smile and start over to the vending machine on the other side of the room. I see multiple groups of friends look at me throughout the room and laugh. What is going on? I look around and all over the room is a picture of me sitting down by the lake crying, dressed like that. And other ones of me scooped up by Toby with 'oh it's okay baby Alexis, your lies aren't true, now stop trying to get attention'. Written on them. I feel the tears filling up in my eyes and I run out into the school yard and collapse on the soccer field. I start balling and Rachel runs out and wraps me in her arms. She takes my phone and dials Toby.
"Hey Toby, it's Rachel Macdonald"
"Oh hey Rachel, uh why are you calling me off my sisters phone? Is she okay?"
"Yeah that's the thing, something bad happened and school and you need to come get her, quick.
"Oh my god, I'm on my way, is she okay? She's not hurt is she?"
" no she's crying tho, just come get her."
"Of course I will. I'm on my wa-"
The phone call ends she drops my phone and just holds me.

I look over my shoulder and see brad and his friends walking over. Rachel just puts my head over her shoulder so I don't have to look at him. " hey Alex sweetie, did you like our little picture art in there? "
Yeah did you like it, I bet you did since you were dressed like an ugly whore in it." They all start laughing.

Hannah says
"Oh guys, she didn't just look like one, she is one. She's a whore and a bitch and nobody will ever love her."
"Your right Hanna, babe. I never loved her, felt bad for her because you know her own family didn't even want or love her. " Toby was running behind him now. " damn, that foster family probably doesn't even love you, how could that family love a whore like yo-" Toby runs up behind him and tackles him. Hannah screeches and Bryce stands back. Toby starts punching brad in the face, multiple times, his face was full of blood. Bryce went and pulled Toby off and Toby swung right around and hit him right in the jaw. Bryce stumbles back and grabs his face and groans. Toby kicks brad in the side and runs over to me.

"Alexis are you okay??" He says outta breath. I can't even speak I'm crying so much. Rachel lets me go and Toby brings me to the car. We get to the house and I run right into the barn.

I go right over to cinch and start to tack him up. I put his bridle on, put my boots on and hop up. I gallop outta the barn. I don't stop I just keep going my eyes are filled with tears. I hit a hill and go to the top and stop. I look around and you can see the river and the mountains and trees. I stop and lay my head down on cinches neck and cry, stroking and holding his mane. I jump down after a few minutes to pet his head, he snickers softly and nudges me a few times. He nudges me hard and i fall to the ground and he snickers and whinnies and kicks at the ground. I can't help but smile at him, he always knows what to do when I'm sad. He starts running around, I have ahold on the reins. He always makes me laugh. I jump back on and just go for a little calming walk around near the river. Just me and my horse.