Alexis P.O.V
I awake to heartland playing. I sit up in my bed and look over at my bed stand. Sitting there was a picture of me and brad, and a necklace he gave me. I start to cry and fill up with rage. I grab the picture and chuck it at the wall and it smashes. I take the necklace and shove it in the garbage. ' knock ' knock' Toby walks in and sits on the bottom of the bed. I whip my tears away and look at him. " do u wanna talk about it? He asks. " no " I say in reply. "Well I let you sleep in and you missed ur bus so get ready and I'll drive you to school, sound good?"
Yeah okay, thank you." I say as he shuts the door. I wipe my tears again, I'm lucky to have a brother like Toby, he's always there for me in a settle way but I know he's there and I'm grateful. I don't even know what to wear to school, in fact. I don't wanna even go to school, I'll have to see brad and his friends and I'm dreading it, but I should go, Hannah has been texting me all night and morning, I'm guessing she heard. Which means everyone heard about it, great.
I go to my dresser and take out a pair of my skinny jeans with the holes and a blue silky type of shirt and put them on I look In the mirror. I don't look like a hoe do I? Why am I even thinking that? It doesn't matter what brad and his stupid asshole friends think, and the only reason I was dressed up like that is because brad wanted me to look 'hot' but what even is hot? What does it mean? Being a slut? Well I don't mean to use those words but if that's what it is to be hot, to have an ass and boobs and loads of makeup and to dress like that, then I don't wanna be. I wanna be me.
I put my white converse on and I brush and curl my hair and put on mascara and head down the stairs to the kitchen where Toby was sitting eating some toast. " hey sleepy"
"Hey Toby"
" you didn't tell mom did you."
" No Alex, I didn't."
"Thank you." I say. He nods.
"I made you some toast and poured you some orange juice"
"Thank you Toby, I'm grateful to have you as a brother" I say with a smile.
"Thanks Alexis, I'm grateful for you too, but about that outfi- "
"Tob, please. Can we just not talk about it"?
"Sorry, yeah. Well we should get you too school before your late for your classes"
"Toby we have 30 minutes before classes start, it takes takes 15 to 20 to get to school"
" I know but don't you wanna talk to Hanna?
Yeah, can I At Least go see the horses before we go?
Yeah, sure. After school put them in the pasture and clean there stalls?"
Yeah I will Toby, if you will help me? Maybe we can go for a ride? We haven't done that in a while"
"Sounds great, I'll be in the car". And with that I run out into the barn. I go to my two horses stalls, that are beside each other. Cinch and Lacey. Cinch Is a beautiful light brown paint and Lacey is a Brown Appaloosa with a white blanket.
We are supposed to get another horse named Spartan which is a beautiful black horse and I'm excited! I go to my horses cinch stall, " hey boy" I whispered as I put my head on his forehead and stroked his mane, he snickers softly and nudges me. I smile. My horses are my best friends, they always cheer me up. Toby starts honking the horn, I grab my back pack from one of the lead rope hooks and run to the car and hop in and we head to school.
Toby's P.O.V
I awake to the faint sound of the Alarm clock and shut it off as quick as I could, I know Alexis hates to be waken up my alarms and I want this day to go okay so I'm hoping if the morning is okay she'll be okay for the day? I don't know. I get up outta bed and wonder over to Alexis door, I hear a smash then it fall to the floor, I knock and open the door and sit on the end of her bed. She whips some tears off of her cheek
"Do you wanna talk about it? I ask
"No"
"Well I let you sleep in and you missed your bus so get ready and I'll drive you, sound good?
Yeah okay, thank you" she says I smile and walk out of her room and head down stairs. As I'm making toast I think like man this has really torn her, but it's just an asshole? Or is it the whore thing and the beating" or does she miss him? I don't know any of these answers because she doesn't wanna speak about it, but she usually speaks to be about anything and everything. Brad is gonna get it, he hurt my little sister. Well not so little, 16.
I hear Alexis come down the stairs 20 minutes later.
"Hey sleepy" I say as she sits in front of me
"Hey toby." You didn't tell mom did you.."
"No Alex, I didn't"
"Thank you" she says, I nod.
"I made you some toast and poured you some orange juice."
"Thank you Toby, I'm so grateful to have a brother like you" she smiles.
"Thanks Alexis I'm very grateful for you too, but about that outfi-"
"Tob, please. Can we just not talk about it? "
"Yeah, sorry. But we should get you to school before your late for your classes"
"Toby we have 30 minutes before school starts and it takes 15 minutes to get there"
I know but don't you wanna talk to Hanna? "
"I probably should yeah, can I Atleast go se the horses before we leave? "
" yeah sure, after school put them in the pasture and clean there stalls?"
"Yeah I will Toby, if you will help me? Maybe we can go for a ride, we haven't done that in a while"
"Sounds great, I'll be in the car. She smiles and runs outta the house. I follow behind her and watch her run into the barn, I smile, I feel like those horses are a lot more then horses to her. They seem to cheer her up. I hop
in the car and wait. 5 minutes go by so I honk the horn. Alexis runs outta the barn and opens the car door and gets in. And we start to drive.
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As long as I can remember
LosoweFor as long as 16 year old Alexis Thompson can remember her life was far from perfect. From the death of her birth father, an absent mother, and an abusive step father to bullies. After being in a foster home for the last 3 years of her life, she g...
