Why? Just why? ( Complete) ✔️

Without you

It's a month Yein haven't seen Sujeong Yuju Binnie and him.  Lately Yein's changed many things like : her music taste changed from energetic pop to low ballad sad love song , she know thinks that she understands how Sujeong felt when Taehyung graduate. Yein always told Sujeong that she is only overreacting and it will be okay if she don't think about it. But that now is the hard thing to forget. She is now spending her day watching a romantic, friendship, and school relate movie. She now feels the weight of that one goodbye word. She know feels the hurt everyone feels when someone love another. She know the words in love songs hit her now she feels like she finally knows the real meaning. The words hit her now.
" if I ever had talked with him then I would have gotten more hurt right?" She asked herself.
She sometimes regrets avoiding and running away from him.
" Why did I even fall for him why? just why ?" She ask herself again and again.
" it's okay you will forget as time passes," she comfort herself.
She doesn't go out that much now. She turn the TV off and starting to listen to music while going out to the backyard , that is now her favorite hiding place, she lay down on the grass. Taeyeon- can you hear me was playing , she could relate to some lyrics and feel herself want to cry why does love hurt so much. She now expressed love as a sweet poison that hurts you that doesn't kill you but hurts you. Then now that no one knows about it she couldn't hold this all by herself she needed someone to lean on and to listen to her. She thought she is the only one that hurts when she loves someone. Why do everyone end up and live their happily ever life but why does she only have to go through this. Is love about hurting someone and leaving a deep wound in their heart. In times like this Sujeong was always with her and give her courage.Dahyun and Yuju  helping her to laugh. Yeeun and Binnie use different things to cheer her up by doing anything that comes to their mind. She laughed at those times but then replaced by an frown remembering they are no longer here. It's now only her Dahyun and Yeeun. But they are currently traveling. She stood up and went inside her room to read something that can help her. Of course she didn't let her family or her friends know about her feelings as her smile never leaves her face like usual in front them. She is now alone at home, her family went out and she said she isn't in the mood to go out. She was reading a story about fate and destiny. She was on her train of fantasy again dreaming of different ways for fate and destiny to bring them together. However, what is the use anyways if I don't have the courage to say those three words. But what else could she do other than being a dreamer. She wished that miracle in the dramas to happen to them like ending up being relatives , go and live in his house, or anything that will make them meet anytime soon. She thought of following him on his SNS but being her coward self she couldn't. Ask his number from Mingyu or Vernon was a big NO. She sometimes thought of following on SNS with a fake account and talk to him without him knowing who she was. That sound to creepy for her to do she is officially turning crazy. Yein promise herself to stop her depression and focus on anything that will make her not think of him.

The school is getting near. She is better now and got herself together. She heard from Mingyu that     Jungkook is doing fine and they both got in the same university. Jungkook even likes their and loves staying there so why does she have to torture herself she thought. The thing that bothers is why Mingyu said that without her asking him. Sujeong loves California but she said that she feels emptiness without Yein by her side. Yein is rather happy that Taehyung and Sujeong can spend happy times together. Well their relationship is not always a lovey dovey one. They fought countless times but could stay strong. Their were times that they came to breaking up a lot but make up. They did broke up two times but yet two of them spent their times with out each other crying and having hard time. So they would eventually make up after four days. They said they complete each other and they couldn't be completed if they are not together . Taehyung always said that Sujeong is his other half. He even made this crazy calculation that made Sujeong tear up but Yein thought they are crazy. He basically added up their birthday dates and got Sujeong is half Taehyung . Yein still have Sujeong sent her.