age II/jswazz+nmaloley

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86 days

86 days and I'm still sitting in this room locked up in several restraints. I just want to go home and see my family.

Every second,minute,hour and day I regret having that fight with John. If I didn't walk out I would be where I am right now.

I blame my insecurities and assumptions. I felt
like he was cheating and never wanted to be with me and Hayden.

I just want to be in his arms with Hayden in our lap watching some cheesy movie. Damn the things I'd do just to be with my family.

I wonder how my babygirl is doing. She's. Probably gotten so big by now.

Each day I blame god for this,why couldn't he let something good happen to me. Thinking about it just makes me cry even more.

89 days

I saw the two guys that kidnapped me they threw a bag of clothes and some food down the stairs for me.

"Damn babygirl that ass I getting fatter" bryson licked his lips "fucking pig" I scoffed changing my shirt "oh I saw your guy and daughter in the store. Hayden right? Some blonde girl was holding her and your boyfriends hand" he smirked.

I wanted to beat the shit out of this guy, I know John would never do that to me.

"I don't know why my dad doesn't kill you yet, that little attitude has to go real fucking quick" I rolled my eyes at this ignorant dude.

John

I watched Hayden sing along to Let it Go for the thousandth time. I sighed as I chugged the rest of the Hennessey.

Hayden doesn't deserve to live with me, she needs to be with one of our parent's. I can't take care of her im a fucking alcoholic.

Why?why did this happen to me? I should have chased after her I'm so fucking stupid.

"Hayden go brush your teeth then I'll out you to bed" Nate told her,she nodded and skipped to the bathroom "I'm a terrible dad. Thank you for always being here for her Nate" I placed my hands over my face signing deeply "I did make a promise to edith when hayden was born" I tensed up at her name.

Help me fuck I can't even write anymore :/