Only Fools Fall

十三 "im tired" I breathe

CF's P.O.V

I was all forcing smiles for three days. Im on my way home now. I really can't get the image out of my mind. My blood won't stop raging. Damn you larry. Damn you namjoon.

3 days ago, I received a mms from an unknown number. It was a picture of namjoon, in a fcking bed, with fcking slutty whore hoe, and both fcking naked.

Funny right? I was off to work and my man is fcking with his ex.

I wasn't calling namjoon unlike the usual, it's him who calls. I didn't confront him about the picture but I speak to him like I was an ice queen because of coldness. He told me he have something to say to me when I get home. I have a feeling it's about that night.

when I reached home I saw him waiting in the living room. he was just sitting there, no tv, no phone, no drinks, he stood up upon seeing me enter

I pasted a blank face as I went to him and sit there as well. I laid my eyes on him to see him reaching out his arms for a hug but put it down after I snob it

"jag let me-"

"explain." I cut his words off

He told me everything. I was looking at him, he can't even lay his eyes on me like he was so ashamed, his head so low that I can barely see his eyes. but then I saw a crystal clear escaped from his eye, started by bits until it became like a river flowing

My heart shattered as I see his precious tears being wasted by me. What happened to us my dear? I was gone for only days.. what do I do?

He was running out of breath because of too much crying so I went on his side and patted his back and calmed him down

"namjoon, I was hurt. You can't blame me for feeling this way after knowing that you make love-"

"no, we fcked" he butted correcting me

"alright, that you fcked up with your ex"

"jag I told you it's because I thought she was you" he protested, cupping my face with his hands

"but that still doesn't change the fact that you did it with her"

"b, jagi i really am sorry.. Please forgive me and don't break up with me please jag.. " he kneel on the floor "please I don't want to lose you, you'd been my life my everything please " he cried

Namjoon, namjoon no you don't have to do that I saved my life with you how are you expecting me to end this up, dear

"get up there you pabo!" I pulled him to me and hug him tighter than ever "namjoon I love you-"

"and I love you more so please-" he cut my sentence again

"shut up! am I done talking?!" I shouted

"sorry" I can still feel his tears streaming down in my shoulder

"it was all her doing and not yours. if we break up she wins. I won't let her take away my life from me, I won't let her take you away from me. but if I find out you're lying, I'll kill you both"

he laughed a bit tho his eyes were wet. "B Thank you. I love you so much that I'll die if you leave me"

"stop crying now you cheeseball" I kissed his wet eyes "I love you more jooni" and of course that'll be sealed with a kiss

Ever wonder why I forgive him just like that? Simply because I love him. kidding. I know the truth. The boys called me right after my flight, before arriving home. It was all Larry. yoongi, jimin, and taehyung confronted Larry i don't know when. My heart rejoices knowing they care about our relationship. and just now, I know how sincere namjoon is. He's not the type that will cry just like that unless it matters to him so so so damn much. Call me martyr, masochistic or whatever, I don't care anymore. I love him more than anything else.

"im tired" I breathe, still wrapped around him

"let's call it a day. let's go?" I just nod

"Go on now, I'll carry your things" and off he go

I immediately laid down. Im really just tired. Larry's game is tiring, I should prepare.

"eh? change your clothes first ya?" namjoon is pulling me up

"b im tired as heck. let this go just this once"

"no that's uncomfortable. you'll change by yourself or I'll change your clothes and tire you out even more?" oh gosh no. i immediately stood up and change

I can hear his chuckles from here. glad he's fine now.

I crawled to bed after changing. and wrapped myself to him.

"let's sleep now" i nodded

His eyes are closed. and probably asleep already. I stared at him, eyebags filling up, tiny beard showing out, rugged look he have right now. How stressed were you'd been, my dear? Im sorry this happened to you.

They're busy because of comeback and Larry added another worry to namjoon and other boys. That girl really!

"I love you" I gave the tip of his nose a goodnight kiss

"Im melting stop staring. I love you more and more and more. Really jagi, thank you" he said with his eyes still closed. he kissed my hair and tighten the hug

oh man, he's awake