I might actually have a good life. Oops. Or maybe not.

Last day .

This is so not good. Last 2 week of summer before MIDDLE SCHOOL starts. Yay . Yeah right. I have been bullied for five years. Being called ugly,freak and weird for five years. All because of an accident that took place during 1st grade. Ugh. It left my face riddled with scars. Whenever people look at me , they cannot help but cringe. I don't blame them but at least they can have a bit of sympathy by not snickering , or passing rude remarks or punching me. Yes physical bullying !Just because of the scars on my face. They do not even know me . Anyways I do not need anyone's pity. Usually during the summer,I would go and visit my Aunt Lily and spend time with my awesome cousin, Liesel. We usually eat chocolate ice cream and watch horror movies and scare ourselves to death. Just kidding. I think. Anyways tonight we were going to our Favourite fast food restaurant near their house and we were listening to Lush life by Zara Larsson while walking. "Huh. I can't believe middle school is starting so soon. It seems like yesterday we were swinging on the monkey bars and scaring the hell out of all the kindergarten students. Good times . Good times." She exclaimed. I chuckled at the memory. Those poor kids ." But I am not looking forward to middle school. All that bullying is just going to get worse. " I moaned. I sighed. " Take a chill pill,girl. Think about all the sports you get to join and clubs. You are trying out for the baseball team right? Because if you don't,I am going to throttle you. You hear me!"said Liesel as she did a hair flip. Lucky Liesel. Her hair was so smooth and shiny. Liesel is beautiful. She has blonde hair and mysterious green eyes. "I don't have a death wish."I muttered. " Don't let the bullying get to you. You are awesome at sports. You have to try out. Show them who you really are."Liesel declare loudly. A few heads turned to look at us. I smiled. Soon we were inside McDonald ,placing our orders. We were were looking for a place to sit when a voice called out," Liesel,over here. ". We turned around to see a girl waving her hand . She was sitting on huge table surrounded with girls. They were two empty chairs next to her. Liesel smiled and waved back. She made her way to the table and I followed. Honestly I felt VERY awkward around liesel's friends. Some of them would give me pitying looks while some would give me nasty and disgusted looks. The girl who had invited us to sit with her was the one I hated the most among Liesel's friends. She and Liesel had been friends since 1st grade. She was Anna Cole. She had brown hair cascading down her shoulders and piercing blue eyes. She was quite nasty and would insult me without any hesitance. Her favourite hobby. I do not even know why Liesel is friends with her. Liesel is super nice while Anna is the complete opposite. Sigh. I Guess I just have to deal with her . Liesel took a seat next to Anna and I took a seat next to Liesel."So what's up Liesel . I see Scar Freak is hanging out with you again . "She exclaimed with one of her beautiful,nice smiles. Remember this . Looks can be deceiving. All the girls snickered. Liesel remained silent. I mean what could she do? She goes to school with these girls . If she tries to defend me,they would make her life a living hell.I smiled a half smile,pretending I didn't care . I sighed and ate one of my French fries,chewing it slowly. " You know. Just shopping for new clothes . Watching movies . The usual summer fun."Liesel said,a big smile plastered onto her face. "Well this has been such a good summer. The weather is warm and the water is so cold. Ahhhh."said one of the girls. Anna rolled her eyes and looked at me. A smirk appeared on her face. "So how was sixth grade,Ashley?Did ya enjoy it "she said with one of her scary smiles. I was a bit taken aback that she called me Ashley and not Scar Freak. Everybody's eyes were trained on me . Wierdos. Why are they so interested in my life. 😡."Fine. "I said. "Tell us more. Tell us about your friends . That is if you have any. "She sneered. I gulped. She wants me to admit infront of her frirnds, no minions,that i am a loner and am bullied every second of my life in school. Yup. She wants that. Lucky for her i do not even care about the humiliation anymore. I am that used to it. I sighed and blurted out,"I have no friends. I am a loner. No one likes me but i don't care ok? I don't need to be friends with jerks. Ok?". Everyone was a bit shocked. Even Anna. Her eyes widened but then she smirked. "Of Course. Just like you're younger Brother ."she exclaimed. My hands clenched into fists. I narrowed my eyes. I had never told them about Thomas,my younger brother. I had only told Liesel. NO. She would never tell. Even though it was not technically a secret. I looked at Liesel. She looked uncomfortable. I could literally see sweat forming on her forehead even though it was quite cooling in here. "What do you know! You know nothing about him." I snarled. Anna shook her head and smiled one of her sick smiles. "But I do know Ashley. I know very well. You're poor brother could not stand the bullying at his school. Being a loner because of his small size. Pity. So as a last resort he jumped into the deep deep pool to drown himself. Sad sad. So unfair. Ain't it Ashley."said Anna with her cold devious eyes boring into me. I was literally shaking. Not with fear but with anger. I stood up instantly. " IT WAS NOT SUICIDE. He would never do that. He is stronger than you think. You hear me. You know nothing. You stupid brat. Who do you think you are!"I yelled at the TOP of my voice. I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. No no no. Not the tears . You're strong Ashley. Strong. Strong. Many people turned to stare at me, wondering," what the hell happened to this girl.". Before Anna could open that big mouth of hers, I stormed out of Mcdonalds. Oh crap!!!! One of my favourite places in the world became one the worse. Liesel's stupid friends. How did they find out about Thomas. Obviously Liesel must have blurted it out. She has a habit of doing that. I sighed. I started to walk. I touched the big ugly scar on my face that ran all the way from my forehead to my chin. Were my ugly scars really the reason why people detested me?Why they could not stand me being around?Why they bullied me and made me feel inferior every miserable second of my life?Tears started flowing down my cheeks. I thought of all my elementary school bullies. So many. Insulting me and beating me. Some of them would be there. In middle school with me. I could already see their cold eyes,staring at me. Standing infront of me with their hands clenched into fists. And I am just standing there taking all the blows. I started running. My feet pounded hard on the ground. I wanted to get home and bury myself under my blankets with the Percy Jackson series. It started drizzling. What in the world?The weather was fine a few minutes ago. It was good actually. Yay. Rain. Sooooo fun.😡🙍I continued running faster. I was not even looking where I was going. How stupid of me . Little did I know that it would end up changing my life forever. I ran into someone,almost knocking her over. "Hey hey watch where you're going,girl. Calm down. It's a lovely rainy day."said a upbeat,cheerful voice. What the.. I looked up and my eyes met with kind and mirthful blue eyes. She looked about my age even though she was taller than me. She had shiny, glossy blonde hair and skin was very pale and white. She almost looked like a ghost. " so sorry. I was rushing home. "I said,muttering an apology. "Nah. It's ok. It's such a divine weather. Btw the name's Rosie. "She said as she skipped merrily. I was a bit surprised at this girl's wackiness. Why was she being nice to me? Did she not see the scars on my face?She did not even flinch or cringe. "why are you even apologising . I feel sorry that you ran into this weirdo over here. " said a voice behind me. I swiveled around and came face to face with another girl. She was like the complete opposite of Rosie. She had dark black hair and her bangs were covering her eyes. She had dark black piercing eyes. She was dressed completely in black. She was frowning . " Ignore my Best Friend, The Duchess of darkness."said Rosie. Rosie smiled at me. " My name's Tracy. And you are..."Tracy said. She still did not smile. Maybe she was not the smiling type. I gave her a small smile and said,"Ashley. " I said. Tracy nodded her head. Then pulled a hoodie over her head. " I am so NOT excited for middle school. Ugh. And worse none of my friend's are going to the same school as me well except for miss I hate everything over here."said Rosie. Tracy sneered at Rosie. Rosie giggled and moved away from her.It was a contagious and awesome giggled which made you want to laugh.I laughed a bit. Wow. I just met these girls and they were making me feel so ...belonged. Is that the right word to use? I think it was." I am also starting middle school."I said. "I feel you're pain girl. It STINKS doesn't it,girl. "She said. " Mean teachers. More homework. More students..."Tracy grumbled. Rosie dramatically spread her arms out."But there's the good part too. So many clubs to join. New sports. Art..." Rosie said dreamily. "Yeah but there
are new subjects to deal with. That's not something to look forward to."said Tracy. Rosie rolled her eyes and gave her a playful shove. Tracy scowled. " You should always look at the bright side of things. There is always something good to look forward to." Rosie said. She smiled and gazed up at the sky. There was an awkward silence. Not awkward for Rosie. She kept smiling up at the sky. I just noticed that it had stopped raining. Tracy couldn't stand it anymore. "If you have stopped
stargazing,can we go and grab some dinner."said Tracy. Rosie stepped out of her trance and smiled. "Ashley do you a wanna join us."I said. I noticed a flicker of annoyance in Tracy's eyes when Rosie said that. "I don't know. I think I better go home." I said. Rosie pouted and then said,"please come. Have you eaten yet?" I shook my head. Rosie smiled brightly and grabbed my arm. "Just come along . It's pointless arguing with her."said Tracy. Tracy gave me a small smile but her smile didn't reach her eyes. I nodded my head. " I Guess I can I can join you if it doesn't take too Long." I said. I was starving and my parents and Liesel's parents were out. "Woohoo I know a great place!!!"said Rosie. She ran off, like a wild cat. I laughed and me and Tracy followed her. " So are you from around here?"Tracy asked. " No. I just come here for the summer and hang out with my Cousin." I said,panting. Rosie was fast. "Wait those scars look painful."Tracy said. Tracy's eyes widened and saw something in her eyes. It wasn't pity. I saw warmth and kindness in them. "It's nothing. Just an accident that took place when I was six. "I said,looking at the ground." Oh. I'm sorry about that."said a voice. It was not Tracy. I looked up and saw Rosie. She gave me a small smile and exclaimed,"let's go grab a hotdog.". She pointed towards a stall. It was crowded with teenagers and a few adults. Looks like it was popular. I smelled the aroma of the delicious food and I became even more hungry. We queue up and soon after a few long minutes, it was our turn. I decided to get a simple a hotdog with Coca Cola. . 🌭 if my mom were her , she would have probably killed me for drinking Coca Cola since it"contained a lot of sugar and was bad for my bones." I smiled . Once we got our food we immediately started eating it. It was sooo good. I had never eaten anything like this before. I took a sip of my drink. The food was not even that expensive but it tasted awesome. " This is AMAZING!" I exclaimed as I wiped my mouth with my hand. Yes. I was so lady like. "Bet you don't regret coming along!"said Rosie. I shrugged. Honestly I did not regret coming along. I had fun. But I wonder if they would even talk to me once they found out what a loser I am... I sighed. " That 7 year old looks like you!"Rosie said, gleefully jumping up and down. Tracy glared. I saw what Rosie was talking about. There was a seven year old standing a few feet away from us. She was wearing a pair of black denim pants with a black shirt and a black jacket. Wow. She has short black hair. She was the coolest seven year old I had seen. I looked at Tracy. Her frown changed into a playful smile. Her eyes danced with mischief. I looked at Rosie . She was holding her breath and an excited look was in her eyes. What were they up to? Tracy went up to the girl. The girl looked up and saw Tracy. She looked confused."who the hell.."she began but before she could finish, Tracy exclaimed,"I'm your future self!". Rosie was containing her laughter . I smiled and covered my mouth. The girl,s eyes widened and she started jumping up and down. "I was waiting for this to happen for so Long."she yelled and hugged Tracy. My jaw dropped . No way!!!! I burst out laughing. Tracy looked shocked a bit scared even. "What in the world is going on here."said a cold voice. It came a woman in her late thirties. She was quite tall and jet black hair and her eyes looked bloodshot and tired. There were a few wrinkles etched into her face. " Mom I found my future self. She came up to me and told me she was my future self! Oh! I am so happy! Best day ever!" The girl exclaimed,jumping up and down,still hugging Tracy.The woman glared at us. "I'll give you three seconds!"she said in a dead serious voice. Before I could realise what she meant, Rosie grabbed my arm and we fled,running as fast as our legs would carry us. "That was hilarious."said Rosie. "And scary."said Tracy. I laughed,not stopping until my sides hurt. Tracy and Rosie grinned at me. " that was fun,huh?"Rosie said. I nodded my head. I had not had that much fun in... years. I looked at my watch. It was 8.00 pm . I had to be home by 8.10pm. "Ok I gotta go now. "I said. " Awww but it was awesome hanging out with you."said Rosie. " it was fun hanging out with someone other than this lunatic."said Tracy,gesturing at Rosie. Rosie narrowed her eyes at Tracy but then smiled. " see you around Ashley."said Tracy. Rosie nodded her head and I smiled and walked away,making my way home. I had to admit that I loved it. I wish I could have friends who cared about me. Oh dang it. I had forgotten to exchange numbers with them. I would probably never see them again. I soon reached home. Funny. I called it home even though it was not technically my home. It was liesel's home. Liesel. She was so lucky. She had so many friends but she was still friends with me. Why? I shook my head and went inside. Liesel was already home. The black boots she had worn were resting outside her locked door. I went up to my room. My parents and Aunt Lily and mr green were in the living room,laughing and joking. I smiled. They were the bestest of best friends. I went up to the guest room. I took my sneakers off and flopped onto my bed. My storybooks were piled on my bed. My mom had told me to pack them as we were going to leave but I had been too lazy to. I loved to read. I was not tired . I decided to spend the night reading one of my favourites , Harry Potter. I just loved that book. Soon I was fast asleep.
That next day I headed to the bookstore. I had not spoken to Liesel. I did not know what to say to her. I think it's best if we leave each other alone. I started to think about school. My bullies would be back and there is no doubt that I would have new ones. My stomach did a flip flop. I pictured Dylan,my childhood bully glaring at me. His cold,icy blue eyes sending chills down my spine. I shuddered. I had known Dylan since kindergarten. He was actually nice to me when we were in kindergarten. He was one of my best friends but then he turned into a jerk after the accident. My eyes filled with tears. I remember that day I realised that even Dylan was not going to stick up for me as clearly as if it had happened yesterday...
I was walking to my class, feeling alone and vulnerable as the other kids glared at me and whispered in their friends ears but I did not care . My Best Friend, Dylan was beside me. "Hey Dylan why are you hanging out with a loser like her. Do you wanna end up like her."said a girly and giggly voice. It was Lila. I thought that Dylan was going to tell her to get lost but something completely unexpected happened. Dylan shoved me and I fell on the floor. My eyes widened in shock. " I am not going to hang out with a loser like you. You belong there."he snarled. His eyes once kind ,turned icy and cold and he walked away. Lila giggled and went after him. Everybody started laughing. As I watched them walk away,I realised that I was completely alone.
Whenever I remember this ,it brings back all sorts of emotions. Anger, sadness and loneliness. I clenched my fists as I remembered Lila. Lila was perfect. She was very pretty and had the perfect style. She did not even apply that much makeup and still looked stunning. Every girl wanted to be her except me. I did not want to be like her. I did not want to be someone who went out of their way to make someone's life miserable. I entered the bookstore and went to the stationary section.
"Don't worry I am going to make her life miserable ."said a voice.That voice was oddly familiar. It was Lila. Oh my goodness. I nearly fainted. I hid behind a shelf of books and saw Lila talking to...Anna! I could not believe this!! How did she even know her. " you better do it . She deserves it."said Anna as an evil grin spread across her face. " Well she has been quiet about the bullying so even if the guys and I beat her up it would make no difference."said Lila. Anna smirked. They were talking about me!!! They were planning on bullying me. They were going to physically bully me. I was going to get so many scars. They are ...horrible. I was going to have to bear with it. I had no choice. Dread welled up inside me. I was starting to feel sick. Very sick.