Living with body Dysmorphia

So

So not over it. Spotty but I'm not over it. I still sometimes feel like a 3 month pregnant woman, and other times I feel like people will notice. But they never do. Wowow I sound like an attention whore oh my. Oh well, this is my little place I can be one. After all, nobody who knows me irl and reads this ever actually stops me to confronts me or tells me "how stupid I'm being" or whatever bs ppl who find out usually tell me. Not be told I'm an attention whore, it goes deeper than your routine attention whore. I do it when I get into fights with my best friend, when my dad is in a "let's make megan feel like the piece of shit she is" mood, when my mom expects me to be perfect, or when I think about all the torture I went through and how I was weak and I should try to do it again to last longer to prove something to myself.