After a long day of dancing, photos, and signatures, I finally made it back to my hotel. Nick was nowhere to be found. I decided I was too tired to wait for him. I went into my hotel room to get ready for bed.
I was only in my room lounging for two hours before someone banged on the door. I ran to open it and I saw an angry Nick standing in front of me. His clothes were soaked along with the drooping blue rose in his hand. "Where were you?! Didn't Mikey tell you to meet me on the roof," he exclaimed sadly. "No! He told me the front of the building," I explained. Nick rolled his eyes and stormed past me." Whatever. The whole thing is ruined now! I've literally dreamed of this moment for a year! Now everything can't go as planned. This had turned into complete shit. Should I even try anymore?!"
I slowly shut the door."Try what? What's wrong?"
Nick scoffed. He looked at me over his shoulder." It's been almost a year. A whole year since I first saw your broadcast. I seriously haven't missed a broadcast since. I wanted to tell you that. I want to tell you everything I ever thought about you." I noticed how his eyes stuck to mine. His body language was serious. Nick's hands moved as he talked. I just began to see the small things he did. All of them I found intriguing.
"You aren't even paying attention! I thought you wanted this too," he yelled.
"What? Yes I do!"
"Then why don't you understand that I've never felt this way! Yes there were girls before you but-," he cut himself off.
"Tell me! Don't start this and not finish it! But what?!"
Nick just starred at me. The silence began to drown the air, letting our feelings swim. Neither one of us allowed words out yet everything was being heard. Nick and I weren't going to drop the issue. Everything that happened yesterday and today went understood. The silence grew weak. Nick seemed as if he wanted to speak but knew no to. Being his self he broke the silence anyways. He stepped closer to me, us being eye level.
"Do you want this? Do you want an us to exist? Just tell me! Get out of your own head for a second. Let go of it. I need your answer now. Do you want us? I can make us last until you say otherwise."
He knew I wanted an us. Nick knew I wanted an us very badly. More than he ever would. It has only been two days and this boy has changed me. I've been a bit more bold and a bit less weak. I know I want this. This could possibly be the most important decision I make. Nick had gotten to me. In a way, I had gotten to him.
"Get out," I said.
His face dropped and tears formed in his eyes." W-what?"
Nisha get out of this. Tell him to stay. This is it. He is the reason life will get better. Go for it!
Hot tears fell down my face.'' Leave my hotel room. I have to pack for my flight."
He gritted hus teeth." No! You aren't going home! You have to stay for VidCon. You have to stay to dance, for the supporters. Don't go because you and I don't know what's going on. We can put this on hold! Just don't leave."
I shook my head. The tears fell heavier. The situation with Nick and I was a weight too heavy for me to carry." Nick I think VidCon was too dramatic. My brothers were right. I'm not ready for this." I walked over to the door and opened it. " Go now Nick."
Nick rushed and slammed the door. " I said you can't leave?"
"Nicholas!"
The silence became the tyrant of the room once more. Anger grew thick in the space between us.
"You aren't leaving. If you leave you give up."
" Well I quit." I put my back to him. " I have to quit now. Things are hard for me! I am always alone! Whenever people are here I am always working or they're hurting my feelings." My body spun around to face him. He saw the extreme amount of tears as I saw his. " It never stops for me. It has always been like this for me. I can't have anyone around. No else should have to deal with my feelings but me. I'm so tired! I'm so alone! It feels like I've fallen face first on the floor and can't get up."
Nick hugged me then kissed me passionately." Stay with me. I will hold you so greatly that you'll never touch the floor again. If I have to I will put my feet on the floor for both of us."
I pulled away from him." No! Don't you dare drop yourself low so I can be happy! Don't you ever!"
Our arms fought for dominance. Nick eventually won. He pinned my arms to the door and screamed," Will you be my girlfriend?"
