Miss.Mills...

DEJA VU?!

Emma POV:

I jolt awake and instantly felt cold. Why am i on the couch...? Memories from yesterday hit me and i look around but your no where to be seen. My stomach drops...you left. Tears build in my eyes as i realise you left me like everyone else. Then again what did i expect? Who would want to stay with me? I look at my clock in the wall. 7:30 Wait what day is it? UGH Wednesday. School... Then i realise that you just probably left because you had to go to school. Yeah totally. I get up and go into the bathroom. i wash my face and brush my teeth ,i slip into a a over sized jumper and skinny jeans and as i go to turn the tap off i see it. The blade. I hesitate to pick it up. I didnt promise you anything so im not harming anyone but myself? I walk towards to blade and slowly pick it up ,examining it carefully. I deserve it after all, dragging you down with me yesterday, opening up when i know im just going to get hurt. You did leave me no note ,no nothing. Tears slide down my cheek, why do i always fuck up?! I bring the metal to my heavily scarred skin. I deserve this. I push down and slide it against my skin ,wincing in pain. After 3 more slits i throw the blade in the bin and grab a gauze. I was bleeding quite a bit so i just prayed it would stop. I walk into the living room grabbing my keys. I look at the time 7:55 DAMMIT 5 MINUTES! I was going to be late and guess who i had first period?! I get into my bug after locking my apartment door and head to school in a rush since im going to be late. 

I arrive at 8:03. I  sprint to Miss.Mills class and burst through the door. I blush realizing everyone is staring at me including Regina. She turns to me and i can feel her eyes burning holes into me as i just stare at the floor as i walk to my desk.

"Ahh Miss.Swan how nice of you to turn up." Miss says with a hint of annoyance ,people snicker and i just flush crimson red and keep my head down. To be honest i dont want to be here and i dont actually at attention i have WAY too much on my mind. I daydream and i snap out of it when i feel a small red rubber being thrown at my head i turn to see people laughing and i just roll my eyes. A black haired boy speaks up.

"Hey Swan, dont fucking roll your eyes at me...dyke" I feel anger boil inside me at the words he spat. I've had enough. I turn around with anger all over my face and say confidently. 
"Fuck off would ya?!" His face shows pure rage and he was about to talk when Miss.Mills intervened.

"Miss SWAN! Go outside now! I will speak with you in a moment" You shouted at me.

 Anger bubbled inside i so badly wanted to shout at you but...I couldn't. Killian just smirked and i huffed in defeat and walked outside the classroom. I sat on the floor feeling like shit. Why couldn't i just ignore him? Why did i feed the hate? Now he hates me more and Miss probably hates me too? What is wrong with me?! I get angry again but this time is different im not angry at someone im angry with myself. I stand abruptly and walk to my locker ,needing the box. When my locker refuses to open i have a outburst of annoyance and punch it and to my surprise i leave a dint. Tears once again build in my eyes and i lean my forehead against the locker. Why doesnt anything seem to go right for me?! I feel a warm hand on my shoulder and turn to see you looking at me in concern. I tried to give a weak smile but i was fed up with pretending so i fell to the ground crying hysterically. I feel a strong arm wrap around me and you lift me and carry me into you office. Students didnt really pay attention because you just told everyone to go on there phones. You placed me gently onto a chair and i just sobbed.

 You locked the office door and sat in front of me. You grab my hand comfortingly and i look up into your eyes. My vision was blurry but i could easily fall into your chocolate brown orbs. I calmed down and only few tears and sniffles could be heard. The bell rang and i sighed realising i have my next class which happens to have Killian in it. I paled. I saw through the window your class began to fill in and i decide to leave. You break the silence.

"Emma are you okay? Im so sorry for shouting at you! Im here for you Emma and im also sorry for not being there this morning I had to go home and get changed ,i was going to pick you and bring you to school but then the clock said 7:55 so i just left for school. AND i know 'you could of left a note but-" You rambled so i cut you off.

"Miss its okay i thought you would have left for school dont worry about me. And ill be okay i just needed to let out a little emotion sorry for being a burden." I say quietly and add a fake smile. The façade is back... You look at me with worry in your eyes. I felt tear form again so i just looked down. No one but you ever looked at me like that. I turn to leave but you grab my wrist with a firm grasp. As you turn me around i wince and i look down quickly to check no blood is seeping through ,there wasn't but i know the gauze will be drenched but i pray you dont notice my actions. But of course you did.

"Emma talk to me okay? Are you sure your fine for the rest of the day? And im sorry did i hurt..." You look me in the eyes and the words die on your tongue as im sure you just realised WHY it hurt. I see tears in your eyes and i feel guilty for the mixture of hurt and worry i see there.
"Emma you didnt..." You say voice trembling. I just nod my head slightly but once again you pay that much attention to me you see it. I see a tear fall down your cheek and i cant take this anymore i hurt you again when all you've done is try to help me. I pull my arm from your grasp as you just look at me I quickly head to the door and unlock, then open it before i go i turn to you.

"Im sorry Regina..." I say loud enough for you to hear but quiet enough so your class cant. I leave and i feel the class staring at me but i brush it off. Once again i ran from you but thhis time i cant go home...You know where i live. I hear you shout for me but i ignore you again. Deja vu.. I get in my car and drive away. It's not like anyone but you will notice im gone. I drive until im outside of Granny. I know im basically hiding in plain sight but i need someone with me and Ruby is my go to. The bell rings signalling my entrance, its pretty empty. Ruby spots me and makes her way to me and once again a look of concern on her face.

"Hey Ems aren't you supposed to be in school...Whats wrong?" She asked concern laced in her voice and we lock eyes and convoy all the emotion in them. Showing her silently im NOT okay. She understood and pulled me into a tight hug ,whispering 'its okay' ...like Regina did. It calms me but i dont feel as safe as i did with Regina. She ushers me into her room upstairs (above the dinner) and i look around her red bedroom. Almost everythings red. I sit on the edge of her bed fiddling with my thumbs and Ruby closes the door. She sits next to me and places a hand on my back soothingly and spoke in a gentle yet serious tone.

"So Ems...You gonna tell me who im gonna have to hunt down?"
Once again her best friend was here to save the day.

A/N:

So this is the third chapter. It isnt my best work however i kind of had writers block but i wont be able to update for a few days i think so i thought id try. Yes it is like the first chapter but this will lead onto a bunch of new problems that young Emma will have to face so stay with me it will get better! Let me know what you think and any new ideas whether new fics or something you'd like me to add with this! Sorry for selling mistakes OR if it doesnt make sense im tired from a bad night.... ANYWAY check out my other fics!! Trust me the next few chapters may be quite heavy (this chapter will lead to problems and thought may seem abit boring its key for the story) HAVE A GOOD DAY!!! :D BTW MY (P) BUTTON DOESNT WORK WELL SO IF WORDS HAVE TOO MANY/ NON AT ALL P'S IN THEM THATS WHY!!!!

ALL MISTAKES ARE MY OWN!!

-Evil Smith :)