Miss.Mills...

You smell like apples..

Emma POV: 

Knock. Knock. Knock.

UGH. I wake up to someone knocking on my door- wait what time is it? Turning on my phone I see its 11:00!!! I was supposed to be in school like 3 hours ago! I jump out of my bed (still in my PJ's) and head downstairs to the door. I could just say i'm ill right, its not like anyone cares. I swing open the door and my breathe catches in my throat and my jaw opens. Miss.Mills. I feel myself backing away from here slowly and as i go to slam the door shut her foot comes out to stop it. I scramble backwards as you stride towards me.

"Miss what are you doing h-" I was about to ask the the hell you were doing and how the fuck you know where i live when you cut me off.

"I was worried about you Emma! After yesterday i thought i upset you and then you dont turn up this morning, where the hell were you?" As the sentence progressed you had a angry bite to your tone. Your mad at me?! She's joking right!

"Firstly i am fine i slept in...I guess and you have NO right to be angry with me... You have no right coming into my home like this isnt there, like rules in place so you cant find where i live? Have you been stalking me? How the fuck do you know i live?!" I get angry at the fact you are here i mean isnt there security on my address or some shit? 

"Language Swan! and call me Regina when we aren't in class... Actually Miss.Swan I have a right to be here since you basically ran off upset and after i realised the reason you did i worried about you okay? I care for you Emma! And i actually got your address from Ruby is it? i heard you were friends and went to the dinner to ask her how you were and when she said she hadn't heard-"

"WAIT! You told RUBY!?!? No no no i promised her id stop! She's gonna hate me! And KILL ME!!" I panic thinking you told Red why you were so 'worried' about me.

"No Emma i didnt i simply asked if she had seen you... And now can we talk now? About your...arm." You say in a soft voice and I just look at the ground debating whether to tell you to fucking leave or not. Now that i think about it you won't leave with out a fight and you might actually care. What if i can open up to you? My mind races with questions until i look up into your chocolate brown orbs and came to conclusion maybe i can trust you. I walk out of the room and into the living room figuring it would be comfier i see you following me questionably. We sit on the 'love' seat couch and i just fiddle and stare at my hands. You lean over and place your hand on top of mine and wait for me to speak.

"Ok so um...I.." Words die out on the end of my tongue. Where do i start to i tell you my life story, how i feel like a burden ,when and why i started to self harm? Where the fuck do i start...

You must have noticed my struggle and decided to speak up. "How about i ask you questions, you nod or shake your head and if you can explain a bit about it or you want to add something ,do so? Hows that?" I nod slightly still unsure.

"You can trust me Emma" You whisper softly noticing my hesitance when i nod. 

"Ok so...On your arm... Did you do it to yourself..? And can i see?" She asked hesitantly and i nod but you and barely see my head move. She noticed the nod though. She takes a breath. I grab my jumper sleeve, that still had blood on it since i haven't changed my clothes or eaten yet, and roll it up slowly. I hear you gasp and your take hold of my arm in your firm grasp as you examine the cuts. Now that i look at them they are really deep...Oops? They had stopped bleeding again however are deep enough to maybe open back up. I am NOT going to hospital thought they will just put me in the loony bin or some shit! Luckily they are deep enough to need stitches.

"Emma...D-did you try to ....um k-kill y-ourself?" She stuttered her voice trembled in fear and sadness clearly hoping the answer is a no. I shake my head and she sighs in relief.

"Why Emma?" She asks softly i know she wants a full answer now. I look down but i can feel her gaze on me and honestly i dont look up because i dont want to the hurt in your eyes when i say this.

"W-well i um...I grew in the foster system. I head a family until i was five they um.. Has a kid of there own and sent me back. They were the Swans. Ever since then it has been bad home after bad home and some weren't as abusive as others but they would neglect us and i was clearly just a meal ticket. In most of the homes i was bullied by the older kids. They would tell me how worthless i am and that no would could love me if my own parents cant. And i thought it was true because clearly parents don't care if they just leave their kid on the side of the road for dead right? Well i grew up with hate and learnt to accept it and then finally being open about being gay helped nothing but when i was 17 i got out of the homes and moved into here. StoryBrooke. And this has been the best place ive been in apart from the Swans and i do live alone but i made Ruby as a friend and i talk to Belle a lot too. I got into school and though i get bullied i learnt to ignore them but...what he said in class i don't know what happened its not the worst that's ever been said to me but i felt like...Like you would believe what he said i guess. The teachers usually ignore me and if someone says i've done something they just shout at me and i just...take it. And you see a big part of my life is literature and if you hated me ,the teacher of my favourite subject, then what could i do? I didn't want you hating me like everyone else. And being put on the spot scares me because people just laugh and say shit about me...so i just couldn't...I'm sorry...I'M so so sorry!" Towards the end i begin to cry and you pull me into a tight embrace i sob into your shoulder and you run your hair through my blonde locks. I feel you trying to sooth me and it works you whisper stuff like'Its okay' and 'I'm here for you ,darling' into my ear. I calm down and only few tears stream down my face. Regina just held me close to her and i felt my eyes begin to droop. It's weird i felt safe in your embrace. Like home. "

You smell like apples"I blurt out. 

You chuckle softly "Well thank your dear".

I can feel your chest moving. I fall asleep in your arms (even though I woke up not long ago)and you just let me and as i drift into slumber i think i hear you whisper 'i love you Emma' WAIT WHAT?! Thinking i was hearing things i just go the sleep cuddled into you shoulder on my couch and my last thought was.

'I love you too'

A/N: 

SO the second chapter is here! Let me know what you think. I dont think its that good but it moved the story along! I will probably update it soo actually maybe tomorrow so look out for that!! :) Hope your having a LOVELY day ;) 

ALL MISTAKES ARE MY OWN!!!

-Evil Smith :)