blissful mistake

chapter 6

Dahvie's P.O.V.

    “ What about abortion?" I asked. She remained silent for a moment. She looked like she was thinking.

    “ Well I'm not really sure if I can do the procedure. Do you want an abortion?" Dr. Lopez asked.

    “ Um no it was just a thought," I replied. I don't want to kill my baby before it even had a chance to live.

   “ Okay well I will see next month. Would you like a picture?" She smiled.

   “ Yes please," I responded.

   “ Alright I'll go get it," She had left the room. Well now what? How long do I have before I start showing enough that people will see? Can I really take care of a baby? I have so many questions running through my head. I don't know how to answer them. I just feel so overwhelmed. Dr. Lopez walked in with my ultrasound picture so I push those thoughts away for later.

    “ Here you go," she said hand me the picture “ I will see you next month for another check up. Bye Dahvie."Putting the picture in my pocket I got up walking towards the door. I turned to her.

   “ Bye. Thank you so much Dr. Lopez,"

   “ Please call me Raven," I smiled and turned to leave. I walked into the waiting room and the boy from earlier looked up at me before I made it to the exit.

   “ Bye mister," he said. I smiled and said good bye and walked out to my car. Quickly getting in. I shut my door and just sat there. Okay let's just think for a moment. I, Dahvie Vanity, am pregnant with my best friend's, Jayy Von Monroe ,child. Well shit. What am I gonna do? I just don't know what to do about Jayy. He is only 23. I don't want to burden him with a baby. I guess I'll just wait until I can't really hide it anymore than leave for the rest of the pregnancy. But what am I gonna do when I come back with a baby? I guess I'll just have to them everyone. But what if they don't like it and think I'm some freak of nature? What if Jayy thinks I'm disgusting? What if he quits the Blood On The Dance Floor? I noticed tears began to run down my face. I don't want him to leave. I really don't want to be alone in all of this. I start sobbing. Great I'm crying. What do I do? Who can I trust enough with this? Where will I go when I can't hide it anymore? Will I really tell them about the baby? I have so many unanswered questions. Okay Dahvie calm down. Let's just take this one step at a time. I quickly wipe away my tears and start the car driving home.

                   * skip car ride*

( cause really he just driving home. pretty boring. anyways back to the story)

   I arrive home getting out the car and walking to the door. I walk in and head to the kitchen. I'm hungry and it already twelve. I began to make a sandwich. Shouldn't I be craving weird food? I wasn't having cravings. Oh well. I finished up my sandwich and got some chips and a glass of lemonade. I walked to the living room and sat down grabbing the remote and turning on the TV. I found a funny movie and began to watch it. I just need to relax. It's been a long day. Half way through the movie Jayy enters the living room sitting next to me on the couch.

   “ Hey Dahvie what are you watching?" He asked.

   “ Grown ups 2," I answered. I could help but stare at him a little. He was the father of my child. Jayy's baby. Our baby. I smiled at the thought but quickly stopped myself. He'll never know and he doesn't like children. I felt a tear run down my cheek. Well fuck. These God Damn hormones.

   “ Dahvie what's wrong? Why are crying," Jayy asked worried. l wipe away the tear. Dammit Dahvie stop crying.

   “ Its nothing," I answered.

   “ Well it has to be something if you are crying," he pushed on.

   “ Jayy it's okay. I promise," I said trying to reassure him.

   “ Okay but you know you can tell me anything, right?" He said. Then and there I was tempted to tell him but decided against it.  I don't want him to leave. I nodded in reply. He pulled me into a hug. I automatically hugged him back.

   “ Jayy just for today let's just relax and watch movies together," I asked pulling my head away a little.

   “ Of course," he said. He pulled away but didn't entirely let go of me. Just had his arm around my shoulders. I cuddle a little into his side and tried to focus on the movie. But I couldn't. I got a funny feeling in my stomach. It wasn't morning sickness more like butterflies.

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Okay I am deeply sorry I haven't updated in like forever. But honestly I accidentally almost killed myself. I needed time recover. I was wondering if you guys want a chapter in Jayy's p.o.v. I am back on track and will update soon. let me know what you think. farewell

~ Nate