blissful mistake

chapter 11

Dahvie's P.O.V. I stood still very shocked at what he said. When did this happen? Was this why he was so distant?

   " When did you start feeling this way?" I asked barely above a whisper.

   " Well that one night......" he said cautiously. That one night? Oh when we....... Yeah well that one night changed a lot of things.

   " So how do you feel about this?" He asked. How did I feel about this? I felt..... well mostly shocked but I could feel happiness. Did I return those feelings? I didn't know. I thought I was straight but I guess I wasn't as straight as I thought. I liked the idea of knowing Jayy felt this way towards me but could I really be in a relationship with him?

   " Dahvs?" Jayy said bringing me out of my thoughts. I looked at him. He had a straight face but his eyes held sadness, disappointment, and expectant. As if I was bound to say I didn't feel the same. He looked down not able to look at me. My heart clench when he did that. I didn't like him looking like that.

   " Jayy' to be completely honest I don't know how I feel. I wanna say I don't return those feelings but that would be a lie. I just don't know. But if you would like I would like to give us a try," I said. He snapped his head up in disbelief.

" Really?" He asked quietly. I nodded my head. Then he turned serious.

   " Jesus, are you serious about this?" He asked. He had a straight face trying to cover up any emotion. It would have worked on anybody else but I've known him for years. I could see the emotion he was hiding.

   " I am but I would like this relationship to move a little slow. I'm not sure I'm ready for anything physical," I said and it was the truth. If he says yes then he would be my first ever boyfriend. He would be the first man i was ever with. I could handle kissing him. I've already done that in the past but I wasn't sure if I could do anything more. I know we already had sex but in my defense I wasn't aware of what I was doing. I was intoxicated and I fuck anything that moves when I'm drunk. I'm just not ready for anything more. At least not yet.

   " Okay and if we are going to try this out I think it would be best if we kept the relationship to ourselves. Just until we are a little more serious," he said.

   " Okay. We can do that," I said understanding where he was coming from.

   " Well in that case. Dahvie will you be my boyfriend?" He asked with a smile on his face. I smiled as well.

   " Yes," I answered. And after that we continued our dinner then headed home. All in all it was a pretty good evening. When we got home it was already late so we went to bed. I slept in my room and he in his. But before we went to our rooms he kissed my cheek and said good night which left me a blushing mess. Wow who would have thought?

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Okay so that was short. oh and don't you just love when you write a whole fucking chapter and it just decides to delete itself (note the sarcasm ) Anyways  sorry its late. I'll try to update soon. Let me know what you think. Thanks for reading.

Farewell

~Nate