Head pounding
alarms sounding
so sick of doubting
my throat hurts from screaming as if i'm drowning
your the reason for my aggression
your the reason i had depression
because you never showed me even a little bit of affection
you've never said "i love you"
and even if you did it wouldn't be true
so just come out and say it to my face
tell me i'm a disgrace
that's how you make me feel
i wish i could lock my feelings up and close the seal
i can't wait till the day you cant control me anymore
i'm gonna break free from this cage and soar
fly far away from you that's what i'll do
it seems like i might as well disappear
but sadly i'm stuck here
your the one who doesn't understand
the one who never can
i'm fine the way i am
stop pretending because you couldn't give a damn
i don't know how many times
you have told me that
i'm wrong and
your right
that i won't get far in life
this trauma you have caused me is haunting
that's why i took the blade to my wrist
the words you have said i will never forget
if i wrote a suicide note it would say this
because this is the truth
don't like it?
in three more years i won't be living under your roof
your love is all i want
but
your hate is all i get
that's why i took the blade to my wrist
balled my hand into a fist
and slowly slit
wishing i could just forget
this trauma in my life is killing me
drama is all you will ever be
why cant you see
all i want you to do is love me?
