You || Harry Styles

Chapter 10

November 3rd

I think it was around four or maybe five in the morning when I felt someone's arm around me. First I thought it was Liam and I prepared myself to wake up and brush him off of me, but I was so tired that I sighed and let it go. My body was heavy from the tiredness and my brain was worn out from worrying about Harry the entire day.

When daylight came and I opened my eyes, I actually had to close and open them a few times until I realized that I wasn't on Liam's room anymore. I sat on bed and found myself in Harry's room, and for my surprise the devil himself was lying next to me.

I sat on his bed and rubbed my eyes hard like I was trying to snap back to reality. I saw purple dots floating around because I pressed my eyes too hard.

"You up already?" Harry muffled voice came out like a whisper

I just stood there, looking at him. When did he come back? Did he carried me to his room? Why he was gone? Where he was? My mind was blowing with lots of questions but my mouth couldn't let them go.

"Hm" I hummed before getting up. I looked around trying to get a hold of myself.

I found my jacket lying on the armchair and my shoes by the door. I begin to collect my things to leave the room. Yesterday I was crazy to see Harry, but today I can't look at his face without wanting to throw up. I'm not sure if this feeling lurking inside of my chest is hate or twisted love, but no matter what it is, I ain't digging it.

"Where're you going?" he asks stumbling in his words, he looks like hell. His hair is tangled and completely messy, there are black bags under his eyes and his lips are dry.

"Home, I guess" I say wearing my shoes and grabbing my jacket

"Why? I thought you wanted to spend time with me" he sits on his bed and runs his hand over his hair. He makes me weak to my knees "Liam told me that you were looking for me yesterday"

I sigh trying to control myself. I hate him.

"Yeah, clearly I make poor decisions" I say and rush to the door, ignoring him calling my name

I sprint to my room and go straight to the shower. After I wash myself and put on new clothes, I check my email. Damn it, I forgot to send the designs yesterday. I was so worried about Harry that I literally forgot about my own issues.

After a fifteen minutes phone call with the store people, which was basically me apologizing for being an irresponsible owner, I finish what I had to finish yesterday and lie on bed thinking of my schedule for today. I had to visit my cousins, but last time was a disaster so I better not. I also had to check on my mom, but I don't feel like it. I sigh feeling failure crawl up my skin.

I better get the hell out of the hotel before Harry comes for me. I don't want to talk to him, I don't want to hear his excuses neither believe what he'll say.

As I prepared myself to leave, two knocks on the door make me stop shoving things in my bag. I drag myself to open the damn door knowing who is on the other side.

"What's wrong love?" Harry asks like nothing happened. Like he didn't totally dissappeared yesterday, like I wasn't driving myself nuts looking after him, like he didn't care at all.

I roll my eyes and go back to organizing my bag. He follows me closing the door.

"Can't you speak?" He insists and stands next to me "Zoe" he says my name and I freeze.

I missed his voice calling my dull name, a name that isn't actually mine. I hate his guts for making me go crazy for him. I hate myself for not being able to stand on my feet. I sigh and turn to look at him.

"You should leave" I say avoiding his green eyes

"Say that looking eye to eye and I might listen" he snaps right back

"Please, just go" I sigh feeling like crying. What is wrong with me?

"Don't push me away" He says plain and simple. He thought it might soft me up but its triggering me

"Me? Push you?" I look at him with fire in my eyes "You vanished from Earth yesterday and now you have the guts to tell me that I'm the one who's pushing you away?" My voice gets braver again "Are you fucking kidding me?"

"Whoa, calm down missy" he takes a step back

"No, I'm not calming down" I say taking one step foward "You think I'm Kendall and you can drag me around but I'm not. You don't own me, you won't make me your doll, you will absolutely not turn me into a crazy person because of your games" Words keep floating out of my mouth without my brain processing them.

"Me?"

"Yes" I almost yell "You, always fucking you" I sigh "Just leave Harry, I'm done" I look him in the eyes and almost bite my tongue. I dont mean a thing I'm saying.

"Done with what, Zoe?" He arches one of his brows

"With you" I say as fast as ripping a band aid "With whatever we are" This weird strength runs through my body "With this stupid bet, by all means you win, I don't fucking care"

"Where is this coming from?" He's oddly too calm

"I don't know, but I know where you going" I walk to the door and open it "Get out" My words are harsh and my heart is clouded. I don't know why I'm doing this but something inside me tells me it should be done.

"I'll call you later, after you take your head out of your ass" He says rolling his eyes, leaving my room.

I close the door and my body falls on the ground. Tears rolld down my face but I don't know why they're here. What's going on?

(a/n: hey leah here, the old owner, nana helped me out by writing this. Her user is annyeongnanda you should follow her and see her new work.)