Neymar,
I heard from your sister that you finally woke up. I'm really happy though I can't be with you in this hard time. I know you need me now and it hurts me that I can't be with you, holding you in my arms and make your world a little bit better. I know I was a bad boyfriend. How could I not realise that you were sad, that you needed help? I'm sorry I wasn't there as you needed me. You must have been so disappointed in me.
Life is not the same without you. I'm not the same without you. When I look into the mirror I see a broken man, the eyes looking sadder and sadder with every day that passes without you. The only reason that makes me get up every day is the hope I will see you again. Not even football makes me happy anymore. It's not the same without you next to me, the team is not the same without you. They are acting differently, they treat me like a stranger, they are avoiding my company. But it's okay. I deserve it, it's my own fault why I feel so sad and alone.
Sometimes I wonder what we would do right now if I hadn't made this mistakes. Would we laugh together over a silly joke? Would we cuddle on the couch while watching a film? Would we be engaged? Especially about the last one I thought a lot. I spend hours every day looking at that ring, wishing you next to me with that ring on your finger. Will that ever happen? Honestly, I doubt it. I don't think that you will give me a second chance. I kissed a women, even worse I slept with her, it's so horrible. But I hope that one day we can be friends and you can forgive me at least a few of my mistakes.
Yo te amo
Lionel
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