Falling for the Bad Boy

Exam sickness

Cara's pov:
July: (a week later)

My mum rang the police the following day and James was took into jail. I've been to several questionings about the scenario.However techniqully he didn't do anything illegal so he's been fined and been put under a restriction law, which makes me feel safer but still uneasy knowing that he only lives a few houses down from mine.

Anyway ! Today is the first gcse exam day! I've never been so nervous in my life. I've spent the past week constantly revising and making sure I'm totally prepared for these exams. Latley Kyle has been rather cold around me, he hasn't talked much and isn't acting the same around me so I think it's time to ask him what's wrong.

I pack all my revision notes in my bag and hop into my dads car. I drive pass Kyle who's walking down the lane to catch the bus, I did ask him earlier this week if he wanted a lift but like I said he's been acting different and hasn't accepted a lift from us.

"Good luck Cara, just don't panic and you'll be fine" my dad says as I get out of the car

"Thanks dad" I take a deep breath and stroll into school. I was so nervous but I wasn't sure wheter it was the fact I had exams or that I was going to confront Kyle about his problem. I waited in the seating area for Kyle's bus to arrive and when he got off the bus I rushed out to him.

"Kyle?" He stops and looks at me. His face looked dead and depressed. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing" he starts walking again. This scenario felt all to familiar.

I grab his arm to stop him from escaping.
"Tell me" I sounded a bit too stern that intended.

"Cara please just stop worrying about me, honestly I'm fine don't make this harder for me than what it already is" he looked so blank. I hated seeing him this way. Why was he being like this??

"What do you mean harder for you? What's supposed to be hard?" The bell rang and he slipped away. Why can't  he be open towards me? I thought we were finally getting somewhere and then he shuts me out again.

Exam 1: maths

I have 30 minutes left great! I've only done a quarter of the paper and I don't even think any of them are correct. This paper is so hard! I can't concentrate either because my mind is too focused on Kyle. Why the hell did I think it was a good idea to ask him during exam week!! I should have waited. Just something else for me to worry about now:(
I hated exams. My whole year were sat in rows in the PE hall , all having our own individual desks. I had one of those seats that everytime you moved it sqeaked and made a farting sound. I also didn't like the old invigilators who walked up and down the isles staring behind your shoulder at your answers which added even more pressure!

My exam was over and I left the exam hall. I felt sick, I hardly knew any of this questions and I didn't even finish the whole paper! My stomach started to churn and I knew I was going to throw up. I run all the way to the toilets and throw up. Why was I being sick? I've never been this bad with exams. I wash my mouth out and try and hunt down my friends. They were supposed to meet me in the seating area but I couldn't see them. Then I feel a grab on my arm.

"Are you okay?" I turn around to see Kyle. The seating area was so crampt and we were pushed together. I quickly put a chewing gum in to get the horrible taste from out of my mouth,

"Not really no, I've just been sick"

"Do you need to go home?" He looks concerned. I didn't understand this guy, I mean yes I like that he cares but this morning he acted horrible towards me.

"Kyle what's up with you? One minute you don't want to talk to me the next you're asking if I'm okay? " I could see disappointment in his face, as if he forgot that he said that.

"You're right" he backed away from me and walked out the doors. I wanted to cry. He always seems to be the one to run away, I wish he'd just tell me what's going on.

I felt really ill so decided to go home. I only had one exam today thankgod so I wasn't missing much. My mum picked me up and took me home.

"Why do you think you were sick?" My mum says carrying a glass of water to me as I'm layed in my bed.

"I guess nerves , it was really silly of me"

"But you still feel ill right?" My mum sits next to me.

"Well yes" I wasn't thinking of my exams so maybe it was something I ate.

"Maybe something upset your stomach"

"Yes probably" I take a drink of my water.

I woke up. I must have fallen asleep , I look at my phone to see it's 5pm so school finished 2 hours ago. I hope Kyle comes round to see if I'm okay but I don't think he will. I don't feel as sick now which I'm relieved about.

Kyle's pov

I felt so much pain being the way I was with Cara today but I need to make her let me go , if I act like a total arse then maybe she can forget about me and I can keep her safe. I wanted to make a change with doing these stupid dares but once again I find myself sat around the table with the gang in an alley way.

"So we have some options, they're all risky but if we do these dares we will be put up to 2nd position in the ranks" Mikey states. I can't even look at them , they all make me sick , I can't even look at myself in the mirror anymore knowing that I'm one of these assholes.

"What are the options?" I didn't look at them , but I felt sick with the thought of what they were going to say next.

"Option 1 , get dragged by a car on the motorway by a rope wearing roller skates at 100mph" jeje says , she sounded excited.

"Option 2, walk over a 10m long fire pit , bare footed" Mikey said. These were way out of hand but the level of dares in this tournament usually involve serious injury or death , all over money.

"And option 3 , get cara to jump off a cliff"jeje smirks and looks directly at me. I make sharp eye contact with her. I couldn't let this one be an option.

"Which one has the highest pay?" I'd do anything to make sure she didn't get hurt.

"Option 2 , the fire pit" rob quickly says

I think for a moment. "Coin flip for whoever does that one then" I knew they wouldn't agree with that.

"Nah mate , you know the rules , if you pick a dare then you've gotta do it yourself " Mikey says

"Fine"

"That's our man!" Jeje stands up and ruffles my hair.

"I'll do it , but after that I'm done " I stand up and walk away. The amount of times I've said this before and have always been drawn back in.

I get home, I wanted to text Cara so badly , ask her how she was feeling. I love her so much whenever I see her I just want to kiss her and show her I love her but she deserves way better than me. She means too much to me to get hurt. I need her to hate me , for her own good , I don't think I'll ever be able to escape from this lifestyle. And there's not a chance that I'm getting her involved with it.