[REWRITING] Im Sorry...Hikaru (A sad HikaKao fanfiction)

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『Hikaru』
I went to a new page and started reading it,

•May 1•
Today is the day Hikaru promised me to take me somewhere fun, like he does every year. But he ditched me— again, for that bitch Haruhi Fujioka. I swear, she glares and smirks at me. She practically yells, "I stole your brother from you, loser!". I can see it in her eyes.

She hates me for no reason at all, and I hate her for stealing my brother away from me! Anyway, Hikaru was talking about Haruhi again, but I wasn't listening. As always. I would just sit there and stare into space, thinking what it would be like if Haruhi wasn't there anymore. Hikaru would look at me to see if I was listening, not because he was worried. Tch. He is so oblivious... But then again, so am I. I would smile at him, but he wouldn't seem to notice that I was slowly fading.. That his brother has problems, issues and was slowly fading away.

That one night, he took Haruhi to dinner, but once he got home 3 hours later, they did something that I didn't want to hear nor see. They had sex. I just sat in my room, not doing anything.... But sit there.....

I should've told Hikaru what Haruhi did with Tamaki the other night... But I didn't. I don't know why, but I didn't..   Maybe deep inside, I didn't want to hurt Hikaru's and Haruhi's relationship... I don't know.... Well, I'll see you later Journal...

Sadly,
Kaoru Hitachiin .

My eyes were wide and started to water. I then flipped to one of the recent pages before mumbling, "One more." It was dated a couple days ago...

•October 7•
So, Hikaru's been gone for a while, completely ignoring me, not that it didn't happen before. He went to the movies with the host club. They asked me to join, be I declined and stayed home. I always thought what my future would be, would I become a drug addict? Would I become a criminal? Would I be able to travel the world? Or would I be be able to be with Hikaru? But I knew that the last one would never happen... Ever.

But I got plans, on the 20th, I'll run away and never return home until my feelings wear off for Hikaru.... That's gonna take a while.... But it'll be snowing that day so it's good to be in the forest on the other side of town. There's a cave there that I found while planning this three months ago. Those drugs changed my life, they were my life, I couldn't life without them. I could always count on them, knowing that Hikaru wouldn't like he used to..

Maybe I'll cut this short and take a walk, get my minds off things. So, I'll see you in a couple of days, Journal...

Sincerely,
Kaoru Hitachiin.

My eyes were wide again and I stood up. He's in a cave in the forest outside of town!! Of course! I ran out my room and pulled on a hoodie and I was in my way. I quickly ran to the forest as fast as I can. When I reached the commoner side, I didn't know I got text till I stopped and caught my breathe. I pulled my phone out and read the message from Kyoya.

KO:(I found some pictures of Kaoru with some girl in an alley with a syringe in his arm, by my guess, it's a drug.)- 10:35pm

A girl? Syringe? Is that why his whole body was filled with blue dots? I do notice him, I've always looked after him even when if he doesn't know... I... I love you Kaoru.

『Kaoru』
When I woke up, I was being carried by someone that I didn't know. I started to panic, so I tried getting out of the strangers grip, but struggled. I've been trying for at least five more minutes until I gave up and waited for what was about to happen.

I heard keys jingle. I looked at the sliver key holder, then I looked up at the little messed up cabin sitting here. How long as I been asleep? And when did this get here? I asked myself multiple questions in my head till I was dropped on the floor. I flinched in pain as I tried getting up, but the stranger just kicked me back down and told me to stay on the floor; so I did. The man scoffed and walked into the other room with his phone pressed against his ear. I heard a language I wasn't fluent with nor understand. It sounded like he was speaking, German or something. "Ja, ich habe ihn hier." ((Yeah, I have him right here)) He sighed and added, "Ist mir egal, wenn die Eltern reich sind," ((I don't care, if the parents are rich.)) I heard someone argue on the other line. "Er ist einige Rotz Nase reiche Kind!" ((He's just some snot nose rich kid)) His voice was loud as he argued back. "Er heibt Kaoru Hitachiin" ((His name is...)) I heard him say. When I glanced up at him, he put his phone in his back pocket and walked over to me. Did he say my name?! How does he know which one is which?! But more importantly, how did he know me?! I yelled in my head. I crawled backwards when he started approaching me. I flinched when I hit my head on the wall, meaning I ran out of room. He lifted me up bridal style and walked down to a dark, creepy room. I started to panic. Again.

The man sat me down on the cold hard floor. I looked around the room and focused on my surroundings. I was in a small dark area so I couldn't see much. I was being tied to a pole. I looked at my tied hands then looked at the tall German man standing up above me. "I finally have you under my possession, Kaoru Hitachiin..." The man mumbled. I looked up at him confused and shocked that he can speak fluent in Japanese, and he knew me.

"W-what do you mean?.... W-who are y-you?..." I asked. He looked at me and chuckled.

"You seriously don't remember me? Am I really that different, or are you just stupid?"

My eyes widen in realization. This man was someone I knew in pre-school! I looked at the man frighted. "R-Ryugazaki...?!" I asked. He chuckled and looked around, then back to me and said,

"Oh, so you do remember? Hah. Well...." He then bent down and whispered in my ear. "I got a surprise for you, you faggot." He spat on me before turning on his heel and walked out. I just stared at the door until it was nothing but darkness. I didn't blink, move, breathe or say anything, I just stared, sitting on a basement floor underneath a vent. Then suddenly, I burst out crying, looking down. "H-Hikaru.... I guess I w-won't be c-coming home a-anytime soon..." I sobbed. I then started to picture my brother and I when we were kids. My sobs became louder. Ryugazaki came back, with anger in his eyes. "Shut up, or I'll beat you like when we were kids!" He shouted. I flinched a bit, trying to calm down my sobbing.

When I finally controlled it, he kicked my stomach and I gaged. He made a 'tch' sound and left. I felt tired for some reason, so I closed my eyes, but my stomach still hurts but I just ignored it and tried to fall asleep. After 5 minutes of trying to get comfy, I fell asleep almost instantly.

Would I be able to see my brother again? I asked myself before falling asleep.

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Hope you enjoyed! I wanted to finish this chapter before my exams comes. Which is on the 25th; my best friend 12th birthday! She's in my class, she's like the youngest one there— my brother is 2 months older but she doesn't care.

Anyway, I probably won't update for awhile. I have exams until Christmas break...... Bummer.......

Bye! I'll see you later, my bootiful Taco Buns!

~YaoiLover2000