I Dream A Dream

Chapter 14: Today, what a day.

Day 2, no reply from Sandy. Liam was still recovering from his injury. Visit? No. Maybe. I don't know. Maybe I'm thinking over this way too much.

Think. Think. Think. I think I think too much.

I think so much that - OMG my big toe looks huge and weird...

Sorry about that, drifted off a bit. Maybe I could just rest today, and wait for a reply. Bill? .. Yeah yeah. I don't like my subconscious, but sometimes they're there to help, to guide, but is it for you? Or for them? Well he's by my side when no one can be. Busy busy bees.

I got up from my bed, it was 2:36pm and the sun was not my best friend right now. Time for my daily routine anyway. Brush teeth, shower, eat, go do something and await for what comes to me. Can't do much with the boys anymore because of Liam. Just hope he's alright. We might even shoot a video with the boys once Liam's better I hope.

"Harry Edward Styles, open the door right now."

I heard a banging on my door. Good thing I had my boxers on.

Door open and I felt my blood go cold, my heart thump loud, my chest rising higher and my breath quickening.

Lilith. Lilith Jane Marie, a girl who stole, broke, gave, played, and mentally ripped my heart.

"Lilith."

"Hi."

That's all I got? Hi? She screamed for me to open my door and all I get is hi?

She stared at me, mentally controlling every movement in my body. Did I mention she works as a hypnotist? Yeah but she's only done so on people that want to be controlled. And I for one, really do not.

She broke our eye contact and started to spin on her heel and walk away.

"Lilith wait."

You idiot. You moron. You absolute nutter!

"What do you want? Why are you here?"

So many questions in my mind that I'm scared I might interrogate her.

"You don't ever hide a mystery, your life is so open Harry. I just needed to see you, I just-"

"Needed to see me? You practically ruined me, and you say you needed, needed to see me."

My wrath was uncontrollable, I could unintentionally yell so loud that I could deafen her small sweet yet evil ears. How can she say she needed to see me, what kind of bullshit was that?!

"Hi Harry."

Sandy was looking over Lilith's shoulder. What was she doing here?

"Sandy."

"Hi I'm Lilith, but everyone calls me Lily."

"Sandy."

I pulled her in, and shut the door in Lilith's face.

"What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to hang out with you, whose she?"

"Old old old ollldddd, girl I knew. Forget her, you didn't reply to my text?"

"Okay, well, I thought I'd surprise you so."

She skipped in and jumped on the couch.

"Let's."

She smiled. Wow, strange day today I would say.

I watched her, as she watched me, waiting for me to join her. She grabbed a bag of toffee popcorn from her bag. Walking to the kitchen to get some drinks, I pulled out vanilla coke and sprite, and just as I turned-

"LILITH"

"Don't ever shut the door on my face you little shit."

She whispered and pinned me against the back door in the kitchen. Sandy didn't hear a thing as she put the volume on the tv to about 47. She's going to need a hearing aid when she's older! Shut up Bill.

"Now, I needed to see you"

"Well how about you get the fuck out and never see me ever again."

"No can do, I need to talk to you okay!"

"No!"

I pushed her off and pulled open the back door.

"You need to leave."

I pointed to the door.

"Harry"

Sandy called. Two women at once, damn my luck!

"Coming, just getting the drinks. Leave Lilith. Now."

She nudged me in the stomach.

"Can't believe I ever fell for you."

I said shamefully. It hurt to say, but was necessary. No woman has ever made me feel so sickened and hurt as Lilith. She was like a brutal torturous bullet that would give you pain every second of your miserable life. A cure never given, a pain never relived, but who said I could never move on. No one. Fleeing away was the best option I ever took, and knowing that she's back "needing" me, took me back to where it all started.

A club. It started at Club PO7, an old club down my old road. I never liked clubs, but forced by my drunk mate. I saw her for the first time, swaying her hips in a long black dress, curly hair permed up to her shoulders, and a twinkle in her hazel eyes. Damn she was a fine beauty. She looked at me a various amount of times until I approached her.

"I'm Harry, and I'd like to ask you for a dance if you wouldn't mind."

I said finally having the courage. Idiot. Shut it Bill! ...right so back to where I was. Let me continue, so yada yada yada, introduction and then yes Harry's house. Thanks.

So we went back to mine and made out and we started dating. Within those few weeks, she used domestic violence. She cheated on me. She loved me, cared for me, wanted me. Wanted me so much, that she went to the extent of locking me in the house. Chained. Hurt. Brutally in pain.

"Harry"

Sandy called out.

"I've been calling you for the past 5 minutes! Gimme the blue cup, please and thank you"

A huge grin slipped upon her beautiful pink lips.

We sat on the couch for the past three hours watching movies and playing board games.

"I'm glad I got another chance."

I looked into her eyes as I placed the 'queen' card on top of the 'king'.

"Well, you don't deserve it, but let's face it, I like you."

I laughed, but a good laugh, the laugh that enlightens your spirit and gets you all smiley, it was that kind of laugh.

"I like you too Sandy."

"Well then be free on Saturday night, I don't have work then and I hope you'll be free."

"Definitely."

"I'll be going now, see you Saturday."

And this is where it all begins. Do I kiss her? Do I not? Do we just hug? What do we do?!

She stood there, waiting, waiting for me to approach her, just like Lilith did.

I escorted her to the door. Be slow, just open it, kiss her and then see her Saturday.

But it wasn't that easy.

So I got to the 'open the door' bit, and, and,

Hug. That's all, a nice simple, quick hug.

"Bye"

Waving my hand I shut the door. Feels like I'm always ending my day with closing my door.

But always opening to new routes. Yet the worst comes, but so far it's been the best. Hopefully nothing is yet to run me back to a bad start.

All is going good. Yet I don't know if everything is going well.

Bill?

Aye.