Forever It Could Be (Book 2, Being Edited)

Chapter 3

My doctor came to see me, explaining my injuries and that Rheese wanted me alive and well, even at the cost of losing my baby. He said I was young and healthy to fall pregnant again in the future and that the impact of the car knocking me, made it impossible for the baby to have survive.
I could leave the next day that is if all my vitals stayed the way it was.
My mind was still in turmoil over losing the baby and on what to do about my feelings for Rheese.
Rheese said he loved me and maybe that led him to do what he did but it was hard to digest. Holding my hands over my stomach, I felt an emptiness inside. Grieve came again like a wave, throwing me off balance.

I was busy eating lunch, still in pain from the scrapes and bruises on my body with a headache from hell making me feel sick, when I saw the diamond ring shining on my ring finger. How the hell could I have missed something so big, heavy and beautiful.
Rheese must have put it on my finger when I was in a coma and just looking at it made me sigh with mix emotions as a tear escaped my eye once more but for a different reason this time.
He must love me but could I forgive him? It was a question I didn't dare to answer.
After my lunch, the nurse gave me some pain meds and still tired from my ordeal, I layed back, sinking my head into the soft pillow and closed my eyes.

***Rheese***

I walked away to give Liz space. Now was not the time to tell her how I felt. Standing by the window in the waiting room, I heard Ben talking to Lillian. I turned around an Keith came walking up to me.
"How you doing?" Keith asked, concerned about the way, he knew I was feeling.
"I don't know. I'm...I feel like a part of me is gone. I don't know what to do Keith," I replied, feeling like my life has come to a standstill.
I felt like a dog that wanted to crawl back into it's kennel.
"Listen, give Liz some time to adjust. She just went through a big ordeal and when she wrapped he head around what happened, she'll come around. I'm sure of it."
I so wanted to believe what Keith was  telling me but I was affraid this was more than Liz could handle.
The boys, Lillian and I left the hospital, with me taking her mom home but as I closed the car door after Lillian got in, Ben approached me.
"Listen Rheese, Liz asked me to tell you that she's not ready to talk to you. So I think it's best if you don't go back to see her," Ben said, with anger in his voice.
I just knodded my head without opening my mouth and waved as I pulled away, keeping up the facade for Lillian.

After I dropped Liz's mom at home I went back to my apartment. I was in desperate need to have a drink.
When I opened the front door of my apartment, I headed straight for the scotch bottle, pouring myself a dubble.
Drinking seemed a good idea to take the pain I felt in my heart away. Where ever I walked in my apartment I saw Liz, remembering the happy days we spend together. Downing the dubble scotch, I poured another dubble.
After almost finishing half a bottle, my mind was numb. I threw myself down on the couch and closed my eyes but try as I may, the image of Liz losing her smile when she saw me, I couldn't seem to get out of my mind.

I don't know when I fell asleep during the night but when I woke up, the suns rays was streaming into the lounge.
I had one person on my mind today and that was Liz.
Taking a quick shower to take my hangover away, I dried myself and got dressed in a jeans and a crisp white shirt. When I saw Liz today I wanted to look good.

When I finally got to the hospital, I walked pass the nurses station but as I past a nurse called me back.
"Dr. Carter!"
"Yes."
"If you are on your way to Ms. Forbes room, she left an hour ago."
Saying - thank you - but not letting my dissapionted show, I walked out through the dubble doors that I came through minutes ago.
Wondering if she went back to her apartment, I got back into my car and headed in the direction of her place.
Driving like a lunertic, I was parked infront of her apartment in minutes.
I still had the keys to her apartment in my car and used it to open up the security gate.
When I got to her front door, I knocked but no one opened. Maybe Liz was sleeping and I unlocked the door and quietly walked in. My eyes couldn't believe what was in front of me, nothing. There was no traces of Liz ever living in her apartment. Everything was gone, like it vanished.
It was Sunday today and I knew for a fact Liz would be at her mom's place but if I went to see her, would see want to see me?
I got back into my car, banging the door shut and gripped the steering wheel tight as if to steady my anger.
Weither she wanted to see me or not, I needed to see her.

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I had a good night's sleep thanks to the sleeping tablet I was given and when I woke up this morning, the pain wasn't as bad as the day before. I was being discharged today after my final check up but I wasn't going back to my apartment. Going back there would be going back to memories that would haunt me.
Last night before I went to sleep, I gave Ben a call, asking him to sort out a few things for me. I knew I could rely on my best friend to make things happen. I wanted some form of normality and decided to move back in with my mom. I needed my home but most importantly, I needed my mother's love. Its funny how you always go back to where you came from but I needed that.

When my doctor gave me the all clear to leave but I still had to continue my meds. Ben and Keith fetched me at the hospital, taking me to my mom's house.
When I walked up to the house, the smell of my mom's home cooked food, made me forget just for a second, the betrail I was feeling.
My mom's eyes lit up when she saw me and I hugged her tight.
"Elizabeth, how are you feeling?"
"I'm good mom." I knew I couldn't fool my mom with hiding my feelings but I didn't want her to worry about me too. She needed to take care of herself.
We were sitting in the lounge when we heard a car came screeching to a holt.
When Keith looked at me I knew it could only be one person, Rheese.
I wasn't ready to deal with him and went to my old room, telling the boys and my mom that I didn't want to see Rheese.
When I heard his husky voice coming from the lounge, my heart skipped a beat. Never had I loved someone before. He took my heart and soul and I hated the way I was feeling. Looking at my ring finger, I took off the diamond ring, symbolizing the end of our beginning.
Hearing the voices in the lounge taking on a more high pitch sound, I knew Rheese was insisting to see me.
I got up and stood by the door, pressing my ear against it, to hear what was being said.
"...let me...Ben get the hell..." Rheese's voice echoed through the door.
"Rheese...please. She doesn't want to see you now. Maybe later...when she's ready. Elizabeth needs time to heal. Let it go for now."
My heard my mom trying to talk sense into Rheese.
I walked away from the door, tears of longing to hold him, but I needed to do some soul searching. I was not in the right frame of mind to speak to him yet.
I went to lay on my single bed, crying into my pillow, hoping he'll understand in some way.

***Rheese***

I came to a dead stop in front of Liz's mom's house, fully prepared to stake my claim but when I walked into her moms house, I wasn't prepared to find my best friend there.
"I want to see Liz," I demanded.
Ben was the first one to jump up and voice his opinion to me.
"Don't you think you've done enough damage. Just leave Liz alone. Sort out your other shit first. Then maybe you can speak to her," Ben said, but who the fuck made him guardian over Liz.
My blood started boiling but I needed to keep it calm, I didn't want Liz to be frightened by me.
"Ben I just want to talk to her and see if she's okay," I replied in a controlled voice but Ben walked away, standing in the entrance leading to the bedrooms.
"I'm affraid I won't let you."
I was losing my cool with this guy.
"Ben get the hell out of my way!"
But before I could tackle Ben, Keith jumped in, pulling me away. I couldn't believe my best friend sided with his partner and not with me but that is what love does, making you do crazy things.
"Rheese, buddy, calm done. You just making things worse."
I pulled my arm free from Keith's grip but before I stormed off, Lillian stood up.
She spoke to me and in some ways it felt right. I listened to her and when she finished, I walked away.
I'll give Liz time for now but I will get to see her again. It may not be today or tomorrow but see her, I will.

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