Forever It Could Be (Book 2, Being Edited)

Chapter 4

I finally emerged from my bedroom after I cried out my heart and soul, to find Ben and Keith had left.
My mother was sitting in the lounge watching television when I walked in.
"Mom, I'm sorry about Rheese putting up a performance. What do you say about me getting the laptop and we can skype Sophia."
I was really feeling bad for my mom witnessing the drama of today but to make it up to her and also to take my mind off Rheese, I wanted to talk to my big sister.

My mom spend the better part of the video call with my sister and her grandchildren. I just spoke to Sophia about moving back with our mom and touched on what was happening in my life at the moment. I haven't spoken to my sister in a long time and it felt good seeing and talking to her.
When I finally closed my laptop screen it was time for a bath.
Laying in the bath as the hot water washed over my body the memories of myself and Rheese in his bath came rushing back to me.
My body tingled at the thought of what he made my body felt like. I missed looking into his blue eyes and how he use to roam over my body with them. I missed his long blond hair that use to tickle my skin as he use to place kisses all over my body, falling down around his shoulders. I missed his touch, using his fingers to play over my body, making me squirm and I missed his mouth and tongue, making love to me with it. Basically I just missed all of Rheese. I didn't know if it was still my hormones but boy oh boy, I was feeling pretty aroused as hell.
The images of his naked muscular body hovering over mine, gave me goosebumps. I started spreading the soap over me but when I reached my tummy, my hand froze, the emptiness of losing our baby overwhelmed me and suddenly I felt lonely again.
I needed him so badly but knowing that Rheese was partly to be blamed for what happened, that I still needed to get to terms with.
I first had to find out the truth on Rheese and the girl called, Gerry, before I couldn't make any rational decision. The only person I knew that could give me some information about Rheese and this woman was Keith and decided to speak to him when I saw him again.

The next two days went by without a word from Rheese and the thought of never seeing him again made me sad.
Ben and Keith popped in on the Tuesday, checking to see if I was okay.
We were all sitting in the lounge with my mom when I asked Keith I could have a word with him in the kitchen.
When we were alone in the kitchen , I wanted to open my mouth to speak but Keith knew what I wanted to talk about.
"Liz, Rheese is my friend and I'm not gonna take his side if his wrong but I know he had no idea about Gerry rocking up at his apartment. And before you say anything...Rheese really loves you and only ever you. Gerry forced herself on Rheese many a times and that baby might be his but he never knew she would fall pregnant to make him stay with her. He should have told you but he was afraid of losing you. Give him a chance. He deserves a second chance."
Knowing the truth didn't make it all right but at least I know I am the only woman Rheese loved.

It was Friday and the boys wanted to take me out. It was almost time for them to pick me up for a night of dinner and dancing. I needed to get back out there, even though I was still a little sore from the accident and just let my hair down.
The boys was on time and said goodbye to my mom. I grabbed my handbag and a small overnight bag on my way out. I was spending the night with the boys at Keith's house. After meeting Ben and they started dating, Keith decided to settle down in Cape Town aswell, buying a house in Camps Bay.
Dinner was very low key, so I wore a tight fitting black jeans with a maroon shafon shirt and black pumps. My hair was lose hanging in curls on my shoulders and I wore the minimum amount of make-up.
We went to a Italian little restaurant and the atmosphere was lively, setting the tone for the evening.
After dinner we were all ready for a night out on the town.
"Are you ready to do this Liz," Ben asked, checking to see if I was okay.
"Ready as I'll ever be," I said, smiling.
We left the restaurant and headed for one of my favourite clubs in Longstreet.

***Rheese***

The last thing I wanted to see when I left Liz's mom's house was Gerry waiting for me but I had to deal with her. She never listened to what I told her and took it that the only way I was gonna get through to her was to be civil towards her.
I let her into my apartment and made her sit down. I needed to be very clear about how I felt about her and hoped that it will sink into her brain that  there would never be a, US. She was the mother of my child and that was it. When I was finished speaking the tears in her eyes told me that she really cared for me but the only problem was that I was in love with Liz. I felt sorry for her in some strange way but when it came to matters of the heart which I thought I'll never have, you couldn't make someone love you.