I feel very alone because I don't have friends who would actually hang out with me. I do have friends who I hang out in school, but that's about it. I don't have the type of friends that I hang out with out of school or tell my problems to. Which is why I turn to the internet for friends. I feel so alone.
For some reason, everytime I feel depressed or upset, I always tell myself "I hope the people who dislike me are happy because I am suffering." I hate it when people dislike me. It upsets me a lot. I know not everyone will like me. Hmm. I feel like if.. I keep on saying people dislike me, I will get disliked even more. I don't know what I'm even talking about...
If I could write a letter to someone, I would. I want to say my thoughts because I hate bottling them up so much. I've been bottling my feelings and thoughts so nobody would dislike me even more. If I told my true feelings, I would be looked upon as a horrible person and it's not something I want. I don't get why I just can't say it. Is it because I think I'm so mature for letting things slip or pass? I don't even know anymore. I want to say my feelings. I can say them on here, but people might get mad at me. And I will be looked upon as a hypocrite and I don't want to sink into someone's level. I just ...
