Unmasking A Ghoul (Uta X Reader)

Ch.7

How long had I slept?
Groaning, I got myself out of bed and went straight to the kitchen, leaving my (h/c) hair tangled and messy.
Fumbling around, I attempted to make myself some coffee.
Coffee....Uta likes c-
Suddenly my hands were shaking. I couldn't stop it.
I immeaditley stopped and made myself some toast instead.
I sat on the couch with my head up and my eyes closed.
'Is this how being drunk feels like?' My head felt like it was slowly spinning and pulsing.
I refused to open my eyes to the strange sounds coming from my front door.
That is until it burst open.
"(Y/n)! Let's go somewhere!"
The last voice I wanted to hear.
The last person I wanted to be in my house.
Standing right there as if nothing had happened.
My eyes had burst open and my neck snapped to attention.
Pulling my body up from the couch, I made my way to him.
"Hehe someone's got bedhead!" He smiled at me.
And a part of my heart wanted to smile back. But I didn't. Not at all.
"(Y/n)... What's wrong? Hello?" His face looked concerned.
"...you... You hunted..." I choked up. I mentally cursed myself, I didn't want to cry.
"(Y-y/n) I'm a ghoul y-"
"Shut up." I cut him off.
"I.... You.... Hunted and I saw you and.. You killed Yusei."
My voice was so hateful, I didn't even recognize it myself.
"(Y/n)! Do you rea-" Uta began, his eyes confused.
I was about to yell at him, and pound a fist on his chest, but in one swift movement he grabbed my hand and used his body to pin me on the wall.
Our eyes searing into each other.
And as I stared into his red eyes, my anger shattered at the sight of his tears escaping.
"(Y/n)...You're serious?  You were the only human who has meant this much to me. Who drives me crazy and makes me happy. Hell you're the only person that makes me feel like that. You've never judged me, nor were you scared of me. I put my heart out for you... And you think, I'm so stupid to have killed your brother? Someone who I know you love? Someone you grew up with?" He voice was wavering into a choked whisper. My lips were quivering.
"If you saw me last night, then didn't you see the face or the badge or anything of that man? Or even the fact he died by a motorbike accident?" His pain was so vivid, I wondered who here was the monster.
I wanted to say something. To make him stop. To say sorry. Anything at all!
But my body was still and frozen as he backed away. Opening the door, he turned back at me and gave me a look, a look that almost made me feel like he wanted to come back and hug me or comfort me, but he turned back and left me alone again.
Why hadn't I thought clearly? Why?!
I balled my hands up and hit my head as I sob quietly, cursing myself for being so stupid.
For ruining everything.
My breathes came in shallow. I needed to see him. I needed to. Soon.