Hidden Truth About LOVE ✔

Wrong Couples

It's been a long time that I don't event tell stories in here, I've been busy with my problems I have to solve, but there is just one point of problem that makes my head want to explode full of stress, and its the couples currently, and those couples are Ben and Angel, so far so bad, they became closer than before, I was so disappointed to see that,
Ill I tell you the story about how it happened,
The first I told Ben that Angel had a crush on him, and he kinda lied, he said he didn't like Angel, but I think he does, cause from his face I can see that he is lying, I found thousands of clues like Angel and Ben together, we were about to record it in our phones but too bad the teachers made the new rule, we can't bring phone to school, that rule made me faint, but I fainted only in my head not in real life lol, at first it was Math time, Angel was staring at Ben, and Ben stared at her back, Ben was not being himself, he's different now,
He used to be funny and goofy, but now, after
Angel had liked him more he has changed,
He didn't stare at me anymore like he used to do, plus he stared at Leila too and I was laughing cause she hates it when Ben stared at her, but Ben said he liked Stacey just because she is KAWAII, aka cute, but he seems like lying again, if he liked Stacey he would get closer to her, currently no, he got closer to the wrong girl, plus Leila had a crush named, Jack, haha he is actually a play boy when he was 6th grade, it was pretty sure Leila's ex boyfriend, she is always nervous when I said the word EX hahahaha hilarious, but Jack likes Jann, but Leila doesn't care at all, I was surprised, why wasn't Leila feeling something, like, sad, shocked, jealous, or maybe she is hiding her feelings from me, like just did to her a few months ago, cause I'm scared, what if she hates me if I told her the truth, it seem to have a lot of problem in the future, I got more chores to do at home, Ben and Angel are getting closer, I am hiding stuff from everyone which makes me feel scared and not safe, all I want is everything to get better! I want the old times we used to have fun, but right now it's getting worse, plus, Angel isn't perfect for Ben, I AM!!!
okay, I should calm down, I can't be soo lovesick, I want to be the old me, I want to have NO crush at all, I hate having crush, it breaks people's heart, especially when you're sensitive and your crush liked your best friend, of course you will cry right now,
Well I am not really easy to cry, cause I'm a happy girl! My mom said when I'm in her womb she's always happy, and that's why I can't get crying easily, but sometimes I got sent emotional with Ben I cried so bad whining, 'YOU DON'T KNOWN HOW I FEEL!!!!'
Like nobody knows how I feel, and don't judge my decisions if you don't know the reasons! That's my motto, the second one,

Roses are crying
Violets are dead
They say my hearts dying
But it's already dead.

That is my recent favorite quote, and that's exactly how I feel, my hearts dead.
In the food bazaar, Ben gave Angel the most special discount and stuff just to impress her! Now I know, they both are lovesick to each other, BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THIS! I WANT TO BE HAPPY! NO CRUSH NO, NO NOTHING!!! I just want my old times back,
I should never like him, I liked him when he invited Angel, Leila, me and that idiot bitch
For a swim, and by idiot bitch is Ask a, he is the most annoying guy I've ever SEEN!! super annoying, and oh sorry for the bad words, I forgot, hehe, again, it was Math time and I was just starting at my worksheet, holding my pencil, my eyes were full of tears, Leila was sitting next to me, "dude, are you okay?"
She asked, "yea" I said in a quick way, Leila was trying to find out what happen to me,
She gazed at the couple and gave me a sigh,
"Dude, err I will be right back in just need to go to the rest room" I said and I ran out of class without the teacher permission, it was good that the teacher didn't caught me running away, I paused and looked back to see if Ben is looking at me, but he just kept on focusing, staring at Angel, I ran to the toilet and cried, God please end this please I'm begging you, I said in my heart, I want to be happy, I'm sorry to all what I did to you and my family please forgive me end this, I added in my heart, I got called as I went back in my class with my eyes red, full of tears, Leila and Ben or even Angel doesn't care, by the way, Angel is always pretending to be sweet, in front of Ben, that little...... UGH!!! I can't handle my life, dad told me to handle all situations HE MUST KNOW ITS NOT EASY FOR ME! I'M SENSITIVE! NOT NORMAL!
Oh yeah I gotta go see ya,
I went for promoting and got lunch.
It was going home time as I rode my bike home, I collapsed in bed and smiled, closing my eyes,
It's Saturday
It's Saturday
It's Saturday
The words kept on repeating, as I went drawing,

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