I slept on the couch last night listening to the sound of the raindrops outside my window. I wake up to my mom wrapping me in fuzzy blankets that smell like lavender. It's warm and comforting and i think to myself how she has never done that before but it was nice.....They have all turned against me now. I no it's my fault but it's also not. Everyone who is supposed to love and care about me is suddenly spitting venom in my eyes and tripping me while a stumble blind. When I was a total mess, strung out and being a good quiet little robot no one had a single thing to say about it. The second I wake the fuck up and begin the journey to bettering my state of being... suddenly everyone has a huge problem with anything I do.. if you wanna piss someone off.... Tell them something true. People get mad real quick...I thought my dad would be the understanding one through all this...he even saw the photos of what happened at motel 666..were banned from there now. Thank God..... They won't tell us why. surprisingly my mom ended up being the more understanding through all of it and she dosnt even know what happened yet. I love her for her quiet understanding.
