Damon's Diaries

Chapter 2

2nd August 2013

Dear Diary,

I saw Stefan and Elena today. They're happy together. So, I took a decision. Since she chose, I chose too. I decided to leave. To leave Mystic Falls. Forever. I don't want to come back here. Never. I suffered, here. Too much. It brings up bad memories in my mind. I WANT to leave.

I can't fall in darkness again. The connection, the link between Elena and me still exists. I will always have a little part of Elena in my soul, and a big part of her in my heart. I'll always have a reason to stay in the lightness side. This connection will never disappear. This connection is my saver. I don't want to kill Elena. This connection is the guarantee that I will never hurt anyone anymore, and that I will never hurt her again. Except tomorrow. I know she'll be sad. But now, Silas and Solomon are really dead. Jack and his vampires too. They will never return. Klaus and the other Mikealsons are rendered harmless. They will never hurt anyone, now. My mind can be at rest. Elena's in security. My decision's taken. Tomorrow, I'm leaving. Forever.

3rd August 2013

That's done. I did it. I left. Really. I left Mystic Falls. I can fly, now. Elena has already called 3 times, but I didn't answer her. Why would I answer? To tell her: "Elena, I left Mystic Falls forever. I'm sorry. Forgive me. Farewell." No, I can't do that. It's cruel. I'm not cruel. Not with her.

So. I think I'm going to New York first. Then...then we gonna see. I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I've left Mystic Falls' outskirts.

I'll improvise.

4th August 2013

It's horrible! How am I going to resist if I can't force people to bit them or to drink their blood. Just now, I saw a girl. She smelled so good. Am I going to resist? Don't know. Just know that I'm hungry. If I don't feed now, I won't have enough force to oblige policemen to give me a place in the plane, or to let me not pay. My travel doesn't begin well.

5th August 2013

I found a vampire yesterday. I asked her for some blood. She works in a hospital and regularly steals some given blood. She reminded me Lexi, Stefan's oldest vampire best friend. I regret I killed her, but I had to. Now, she returned, and she's living with Stefan and Elena, in their house in Mystic Falls. I hope she will find someone who really loves her. 'Cause I'm keeping an eye on her and her friends. Nobody's gonna hurt her. Not while I'll be on this Earth.

So, this vampire's named Rosalie. She's really beautiful: very tall, has long blond hair and cute blue eyes. She's 159. He husband's dead. She killed him in 2000 because she didn't feed during 3 days. When she came back home, she found him hurt. He was bleeding. As she got near of him to treat the injury, she smelled the blood and got hungry. She couldn't resist and bit him. When she finally realized what she did, he was already dead. So, she decided she will never bite a human again. She just drinks human blood already out of the body.

I explained the entire story, from the beginning, from our meeting with Katherine. And, while I was telling her the story, I realized something: Elena loves me! She still loved me, from our first conversation, but she loves Stefan more than me.

Rose (it's her nickname. She lets me call her by its) is a very kind person. She offered to give me blood if I stay in New York with her to work. She says that I need a new life, and that New York seems to be the right town to begin again.

But I explained my plan. I want to go back to all the countries I've crossed when I was younger, to see what did they become.

Then, she said she's coming. I first refused. "It's not a place for a lady." I said. She answered me: "Do you see a woman only? Or a dangerous vampire? Or a female vampire?" I smiled and I accepted. She told me that her dream's to do the World Tour, but that she didn't do it before cause she didn't want to do it alone. Her husband was too weak.

I'm happy. I found a new friend. All the more that she brought a lot of blood with her. I won't be hungry! I must do a correction: my travel begins very well, doesn't it?