Opened by Accident

Soft words

Suppppppeeeeeerrrrrrr Sorry it's taken so long for a new part. I got stuck at a writer's block. Anyway, this part is in Sherlock's pov. I know I said 'very smutty' previously but that's a lie. I didn't know how to fit it in so uhhhh yeah. Fluff everyone.
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I slowly approach John's bed. His eyes are still closed and he's still rubbing that big thick member of his. My mouth is dry and my heart is breaking my ribs. I try to steady my breathe to remain quiet but i can't. I look down at John. Soon the final drop of desire lands in my hip.
I bend down and my lips meet John's. His was open with occasional moan and my name. I don't want to be too desperate so a sweet short kiss will do. As i draw away from the delicious taste of John, i open my eyes to land on John's face shocked and trying to register what had happened.
'Sh~Sherlock...' His voice trailed off.
'I love you John and now i know you love me too.' I struggled to get the words out. My heart was beating so loud. John was still trying to believe this and honestly so was i.
                         Without any further words i bend down again to kiss him. But John's fingers were in the way.
'Sherlock, we need to talk this through.' John speaks with a serious tone. Damn it. Can't a guy get laid without the 'talk'. Well, at least it shows he cares.
I silently nod and John sits up and zips himself back up. Shame. His member was pretty. Anyway, i sit myself next to John and he takes my hands into his. This is turning serious. This is happening. I try and control myself. And remember to ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ．
'Sherlock, are y-you serious?' John questions. I sneer a bit.
'Of course it is. Why do you think i'll play against you.' My head starts to fill with loads of questions right away. Why would you think otherwise? Don't you believe me? Can this happen?
John looks desperately into my eyes which make me shatter.
'John...'.
'Goddammit, Sherlock.' John shouts at me. Clearly, he is broken. I want to make this happen.
John stares at me as if he heard me. It's a lot to take in. But we can do this. We can. We love each other and we can make this happen. I repeat this out loud.
'I don't deny you Sherlock, I- it's a lot to take in, that's all.' John says softly.
'We can make this happen.' I say softly.

John smiles at me, softly.