The Race That changed Their Lives

Season Five

Patrick's Pov

Ellen. I've loved her everyday since day one, maybe even more than Jillian. Her beautiful green eyes and sandy hair. I've had feelings for Ellen on day one, but I was too afraid to say it, but now I think I'm ready to announce it to the world. Shout it through the rooftops, but she doesn't know that I am dying inside because I can't have her. She already has Chris, and I have Jillian, but I love Ellen, not Jillian. Yes, she is the mother of my three kids Tallulah, Sullivan and Darby. The only reason I'm not divorcing Jillian is for my kids.  People are starting to get curious as to what's wrong with me, but I just brush it off and fake a smile.

Ellen's Pov

Patrick. His beautiful blue eyes that I always fall in love with everyday. His jet black hair, that's always in perfection. He's gorgeous, he's been my best friend since day one. Something is bothering him, I can tell. We can read each other like a book. I've got a scene with Chyler Leigh, and Jesse Williams, so I'll just ask him after. We're in season five, and I've been working with him for five years now. Overtime, we've become best friends, we can understand each other, tell when something is wrong without even talking to one another. Something is definitely wrong with him, I can tell.

Patrick's Pov

I am in the trailer just thinking about life. How am I supposed to tell Ellen I have feelings for her? I'm so afraid that it's going to ruin our strong friendship, and I can't live with that. My whole life will be over living with that mistake, even though I am dying inside because I can't have her, ever. I know I have a wife, and Jillian's the mother of my three kids, but I can't do this anymore, I can't pretend to be happy, because I'm not. The thought that I can't have Ellen is killing me, drowning me in my own thoughts. Ellen makes me whole. I can't live without her. Suddenly I heard the trailer door open, Ellen is here. "Patrick, are you here? Shonda wants to see you " She says. She looked around and stopped when she sees me. "What's wrong Paddy?" She asked me. "I can't tell you " I said. "Patrick, we're best friends. You can tell me anything." She says. "You're going to hate me forever." I say. "No Paddy, I won't. "Fine. The thing is that I have strong feelings for you. But you already have Chris, and I have Jillian, now you know that I'm dying inside because I can't have you." I finish. "Paddy, I don't know what to say." She says. "But Ellen, I don't love Jillian, I love you. And I'm sorry if this ruins our friendship, I've loved you since day one, love at first sight." I say. "You know what Paddy? I've had feelings for you as well, since day one. And Patrick, your jet black hair, ocean blue eyes, always in perfection. You're beautiful. And we'll find a way to make this relationship work." She says. "El, I have a race on Saturday. Can you come? The whole Grey's and Scandal cast are going to be there. One of the biggest races of my life." I asked hopeful that the answer was yes. "Of course Paddy, I'd love to." She says. "Thank you El." No problem Patrick, I'd love to see your racing skills." She says. "Okay, I'll amaze you. Impress you so much!" I say. "Anyways, Shonda canceled filming. So we can go home."

I drive home in my black Porsche, this car is like my baby, I love it so much. Ellen drove home in her car hours ago, and Jillian is probably wanting to pick a fight with me again for the billionth time. I really need to get a divorce. I can't handle this anymore, just coming home to another fight brewing. I don't want my kids to see this, Jillian and I fighting. It's unhealthy for them, and I want to be the best parent possible for Tallulah, Sullivan and Darby. They've met Ellen and they love her, but it makes me sad that I can't love her, be with her and have kids with her and live a life with her. I will never be whole again. On the bright side, I have a race, which I am very excited about, the whole Grey's and Scandal cast are coming. However, I invited Jillian, she's coming with the kids and Stella. She thinks that we can still be together, but I don't think so, but I won't push it.