This will most likely be a shorter imagine fyi.
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Carl had been different ever since we got to to Alexandria. He wasn't his usual self. Before, he would always hold my hand and kiss me every moment possible. Now he was always on his own and I had to practically beg for the tiniest kiss.
It was a cloudy afternoon and it looked like it was gonna rain. Everyone had taken shelter inside and I was sitting on the couch beside Carol. I noticed Carl walk swiftly through the door and into the kitchen, not even glancing at me. I ignored him and continued to chatter away to Carol. I looked out the window and noticed it was pouring. I grimaced and excused myself from the conversation I was having.
Tara was in the kitchen, making what looked like dinner. I smiled at her as I looked around for Carl. What was his deal? I wondered to myself. "Have you seen Carl?" I asked her as I walked up to her. She looked over at me and gave me some sort of sorry look. "I think he went upstairs" she replied. "Thanks" I said quickly as I walked out of the kitchen and up the houses stairs. There were four bedrooms and Rick had been nice enough to give me and Carl our own. The first couple days were good when we got to Alexandria but then he started acting weird. Now I kind of wish I had a shared room with Tara and Rosita. At least they acted like they liked me.
I reached our room and I tried to turn the door knob. It was locked. "What the hell" I murmured as I tried to twist it. "Open up! I know your in there!" I yelled, slamming my hand against the door. I couldn't hear anything on the other side. Not wanting to draw more attention to myself, I took a bobby pin out of my hair and I placed it in the lock. I moved it around and heard a quiet click! I sighed a breath of relief and pushed open the door. Thats when my breath caught in my chest. Carl was sitting on the floor, leaning up against our bed. A small kitchen knife was held in his hand. I looked to his other arm and saw a trickle of blood run down his wrist. There was a deep cut and it was a sick crimson colour.
Tears flowed down my face as I saw his. He looked terrified and sorry. Tears streaming down his freckly face. "Oh god" was all I could say as I ran over to him. "I'm so sorry" he said, his voice thick with tears. I couldn't say anything. I ran over to the closet and grabbed the sandal first aid kit Michonne had given us. Carl was sobbing as he held his cut arm. "I-I don't know what I was thinking" he cried, his voice cracking. "Its ok Carl" I said soothingly. I pressed a cloth against his skin, trying to stop the bleeding. While I did that I stroked his hair. "Y-you're gonna be ok" I stammered. He didn't say anything, he just kept crying. "I love you (Y/N)" he managed to cry out.
I kept my one hand on his wound and I placed the other on his wet face. I put my face close to his and kissed his lips. His lips trembled a bit as they moved against mine. "You're gonna be ok" I murmured into his ear as I pulled away. I took the cloth off and quickly wrapped a bunch of gauze on it. "I don't know what else to do" I whispered. He just shook his head and pulled me closer to him. He had stopped sobbing and now only an occasional tear ran down his face. "You should go lay down" I suggested. He nodded and I helped him stand up. I wiped away his tears with my sleeve.
He climbed under the blankets and so did I. "Please don't tell anyone about this" he whispered into my ear. "Of course" I whispered back. The rain was still coming down and I sighed. "Carl?" I asked tentatively. "Hmm" he replied, "why have you been acting so weird lately?" There was silence for a moment. "I was just feeling really out of place. And when I saw all these kids here with moms, I just realized how much I miss mine. I'm sorry if I pushed you away, that was just my way of letting my anger out" he said quietly. I looked up at his sad face. "I'm so sorry, you should've told me" I murmured as I kissed his neck lightly.
"I know, when I hurt myself, I knew I had to tell you. I just didn't know how. I was so scared I was gonna die" he said. A tear fell from my eye. "I would never have been able to move on if you had died" I said into his chest. "Promise that you'll always tell me if you're feeling down?" I ask him. "I promise" he said. I took his hurt hand and kissed where the wound was. "I kissed your booboo all better" I said with a coy smile. Carl cracked a smile and kissed my forehead. "What would I do without you?" he said as he laced our fingers together. "I wonder the same thing" I muttered.
Carl pulled my face up to his and kissed me slowly. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. I ran my hands through his beautiful overgrown hair. He kissed my neck and made his way back up to my lips. And we stayed this way until the rain stopped and all his pain faded away.
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Omg that was a quick one! Sorry if you wanted a longer one. Also I had no idea how to end that. I have a good idea for a new imagine so hopefully I get that one written and published soon. Have a good Thursday!
Song you should try: Better Man/Little big town
-Lily
