My Life through LENSES

chapter 4

“Will you be my girlfriend?” he said it with a shy smile on his face.

“Yes” I said rather flushed and it came out that way.

“awesome ,so Ive never done the dating thing so what now.”

“oh, ummm great . I know even less than you .” I looked down stifling a giggle then looked up noticing he was also blushing except im pretty sure it looks way better on him.

“So im going to go now ill, uuh see you later.”

“bye” he smiled and that one word sent my heart into overdrive.

 How do I respond to that, I stammered a inaudible response and retreated towards my house. Why did he want to date me I really couldn’t fathom why someone so remarkable would want someone like me ,average ,boring and constantly hidden behind a camera ,if I’m being honest my reliance on my camera annoyed me but it was my confidence , the world looks so much better through a lens. I took a picture of Blake walking away the light was almost perfect but its imperfection creating shadows casting emotion into the already deep composition. Another thing I love about photos they capture so much that you miss at a glance like his perfect gold locks or the rough rip in his jeans or the waving of his hoodie in the wind all tiny details that complete this sublime image.

I couldn’t wait to get out of this town and finally go somewhere  that my art can be appreciated but now I had something that wasn’t there before I have a need or attachment to Blake thats something I thought would never hold me back I knew that Mike has a future planned out and after school me would be distant friends but what did Blake have planned hes already in collage but I don’t even know what hes studying ..I’m sure that’s something his girlfriend is required to know.

I started getting a bit clammy on the way home hot and tired not that the walk was long or anything but I still wasn’t sure what the hell just happened. As I got to the door I noticed my mom wasn’t home, sigh I guess dinners on me tonight not that I mind I love cooking and can cook almost anything except my favourite food which is probably any type of pasta but especially lasagne.

I searched in the fridge only to realise the horrid truth that is we have nothing at all to create a complete meal. I’m going to have to go shopping...kill me now!

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After about an hour of grocery shopping I returned home with everything  I needed to make Caesar salad one of my moms favourite foods.

‘Hey mike dinner at my place’ I texted my Bestie in the hopes that he could make it, and I soon got a reply in the form of an knock by the door.

Before I got there I heard keys jiggling and the door swung open.

“I’m pissed at you so don’t come near me.” Mike stated in a firm tone.

“bu..what did I do?” I stared at him disbelievingly “and if youre so pissed why the hell are you here?” I stated raising an eyebrow.

“you my best friend” he air quoted best friend “have a lot of explaining to do” he then pushed passed me and proceeded to dish himself a large serving of food I dished and followed him to the dining room.

“am I missing something?”

“So you will never guess what 'I heard whilst changing for a shoot ,these two girls gossiping as girls do. And you know I never really pay much attention until I hear that my Bestie is dating not only a collage boy but from what I’ve heard head playboy and she just failed to mention it to me.”

“ok look, he isn’t a playboy firstly secondly I planned on telling you when you got here.” I defended.

We sat in silence for at least ten minutes until Mike broke the silence and conveyed to me his ‘great’ distress and how I’m going to get hurt and that I should end it now before I get to attached . after about an hour of arguing he agreed to drop it and we put on a movie which was now coming to an end thank the pope, we watched house of wax (mikes choice no doubt.)I was now relatively sure he would start crying soon by the way he was jittering like a Chihuahua on crack. Once it finished I turned it off and stared at him nonchalantly .