Chapter 1: I don't know who I am

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I put on my pair of jeans, a simple shirt and a warm hoodie. I put the rest of my clothes in a suitcase. I need to hurry, they will come back soon and I don't want to get caught, I made my choice. I take my bag which was on a chair. I put in my books, my pills, my headphones, my phone charger, my Gameboy, her charger and my teddy bear. Oh yeah, some cash too. It has been a little while since I started getting ready for this. To be sure that they won't find me, I withdraw a lot of money from the bank so I won't use my credit card ever. Talking about my credit cards, I started to cut them one by one. The first one, the second one, the third, the fourth and the fifth. I take all my stuff and go downstairs to verify what time is it. Awesome, I still have one hour before they get back home. I take all my broken credit cards and put in in the trash and then I take a piece of paper which was on the sideboard. I write the reasons of my departure on it with a lot of precautions. I want them to know that there is no reasons to look for me, I don't want to see them ever. I need to experiment the real life, to test things, to find myself and mostly, I want to heal myself. I put my lips on the paper, like I want to kiss it, thinking will change something and then I visit every room in my house so I could picture them in my head and thinking about it when I will be far away from here.

I put on my pair of sneakers, take my suitcase, my backpack and throw everything in my trunk. I sit at the driver place and drive out of the alley. In the car I compose the number of the only person who will help me.

???- Yes?

Addison- Anna, this is Addy. I need your help.

Anna- Oh no... What the fuck did you do again?

Addison- Can you remind me where you live? I am on the road.

Anna- 225 Amber Street. How long before you're here?

Addison- I need to buy some stuff, in 40 minutes maybe.

I know Anna for 3 years now. I mean "know"... We met online and, with my shrink, she is one of the few people who doesn't think I am crazy. Since the "accident", she was always here for me. We saw each other a few times but she never came to my house and I hadn't the chance to come to hers. We know everything to know about each other and she helped me to get out of the shit hole so many times. I hope she will not let me down this time, apart from her, I have nobody.

I stop on the road to get to a market, buying some stuff which can help me having her approbation. I get out the market and sit back in the car. I put my plastic bag on the passenger sit, turn on the radio and pull down the window. I start the engine and hit the road again. I need to feel the fresh air on my skin, it feels like my ideas were putting back where they were supposed to be.

I finally arrived at her place, I park, get my backpack, my plastic bag and my suitcase. I walk to her building and look for her name on the ring. When I find him, in hit the ring bell and wait until she answers me. If I have a good memory, it is the 4th floor, apartment 4B so I need to take the elevator. I get in, press the bouton for the 4th floor and when I finally get to the 4th floor, I walk down the hallway and enters in Anna's apartment.

Addison- Anna! I'm here.

She gets out her kitchen and come to give me a big hug. Anna is a beautiful woman. She is one year older than me and she is taller and very thin. She has beautiful long brown hair and some stunning green eyes. She notices directly my suitcase and my backpack.

Anna- Don't tell me what I think it is.

I smile at her and give her the plastic bag where there is 2 bottles of coke, a dried sausage and a bottle of milk. She laughs and invites me to sit on the coach while she is looking for two glass to pour the coke in it.

Anna- How are you? You look like shit.

Addison- True, I've known better. This is why I'm here, I need you.

Anna is right, I was tired because it has been a while since I haven't slept. Also I stopped wearing makeup or taking care of my skin.

Anna- So what's up?

Addison- It's been a while since I thought about this and I've done it tonight, I ran away.

Anna- Again?! But... Aren't you afraid that it happens again?! You know your "accident".

She's doing this weird things with her fingers while saying the word accident.

Addison- Of course I am afraid! But this is why I am here, I really need your help.

Anna- And why are you so sure I am going to help you?

Addison- You're an extremely generous person. You don't want me to get hurt again right? Plus I brought you your favourite dried sausage.

She laughs and gets closer to me.

Anna- Ok, you can crash to my place. Plus my roommate just left, I was wondering how I was going to pay the rent. But we need to get you a job.

Addison- I promise tomorrow, I will look for it as early as possible. Thanks Anna, you don't know how much you're helping me.

I get closer to her and hug her tight. She makes me visit her apartment, it was very small but I am sure I will love it. She helps me to put my stuff in my new room and then we sat on my bed to talk. It is almost midnight when Anna get out of my room, she starts early tomorrow. Me, I just let myself fall on the bed and I fall asleep immediately, I am so exhausted. I didn't change myself or took a shower, I am too exhausted for that.

The next day, I wake up with a start because I heard a loud noise from the kitchen. It has to be Anna who breaks something, she is such a left-handed. I want to get up but my somnolence gets me again and I fall asleep again. During the morning, Anna walks in my room and open the curtains letting all the daylight waking me up.

Addison- Shit Anna, I thought I told you, I am not a morning person at all.

Anna- Addy, it is the afternoon, almost the evening.

Addison- What ?!Anna- It is 5 pm. Get up now.

It can't be possible... I haven't sleep that much. I turn to look the time on my phone and Anna was right, it was 5pm.

Addison- I am so sorry Anna, I didn't thought I could sleep that much. Fuck, I promise you I will get up earlier tomorrow.

Anna- I hope so, I got you a job as a waitress in the restaurant I work. They take you in for the week to see.

I open my eyes wide and jump into her arms to thank her. I told you, this girl can get you out every shit hole.

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* Author's note*

Hi guys! Thanks for reading my Dustin's fanfiction! I will upload it when I can but I will keep you inform on my twitter @Dustikrab . Also if you see some mistakes please say it in the commentaries but don't be mean or something, english is not my first language. Also you can comment to say if you liked the chapter or not, I will take a note about everything you said! So... Enjoy ! :D

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