The Swap // Denis Stoff

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Denis and I get back to the bus and I disappear into my bunk. I pull the curtain shut and grab my phone. Danny said he is in the same city as me and I can't help but feel so excited. I want to meet him in this dress because it's so beautiful but I know the boys will question me. I can't help but feel nervous about what he's going to say about my bump. I feel so sad that the baby isn't his. I know we were trying for one before but we just didn't seem to have any luck.

I shake the sadness off and grab some leggings and a decent looking tee from my suitcase. I quickly change but I keep my make up on and my hair all nice and curly. I go out to the front of the bus to find that most of the guys had already went to bed. Denis and James are sitting playing XBOX and pay little to no attention to me. 

'I'm off out to the shop down the road. Won't be long.'

'Okay.' They both day in unison and then get back to shouting at the TV. I disappear outside and walk down the path. Danny said he would meet me behind the main stage, which is around a 5 minute walk from the bus. It's very dark out and a little chilly but I don't mind. I can feel my heart beating through my chest with excitement, and it's certainly keeping me warm.

I reach the stage and notice a figure standing. I walk quickly up to it and he turns around. I see his face and want to cry. I have missed him so much. This is too much!

'Amber.' He says, opening his arms out for me. I run into them and he grabs me in a tight hug. I feel myself getting a bit upset and he holds me out in front of him. 'Don't cry baby. We're going to get away from here. Me and you. I'm going to take you home.'

'I'd like that so much.' I sniff. 'I have missed you so much!'

I jump into his arms and giggle. I hear some voices walking past us but completely ignore them.

'Look at your belly.' He says, smiling. 

'I know. It's scary. I'm 7 months gone now.'

'You're getting so big.' He touches my stomach and I blush, looking down. The warmth of his hand feel so good, so familiar.

'I know you have been a bit off lately... but I hope we can sort this out. We need to be friends again.'

'We do. But Danny you hurt me. You said you would never hurt me... and you did. You're why I'm like this.'

He grabs my hand and presses it to his chest. He comes closer to me and looks me right in the face. 'I am so sorry Amber. I was drunk... I wasn't myself. You know I would never do anything to hurt you intentionally. I was so fucking upset when I found out you were in a bad way. I promise you I won't ever do anything to hurt you ever again.'

'Okay.' I smile. He keeps my hand in his and we walk together. 'I told the guys I was going to the shop so I can't be long. So do you wanna walk me back a little?'

'Yeah.'

We walk together, chatting. I feel so good with him. I just want to jump on him and we can go back home to our little house. I forget about the present and completely drown myself in the past. I miss us so much. I waddle a little bit due to my growing belly and can't help but think that this baby could have been his. It makes me so sad.

Snap out of it. That's a literal human being inside of you. 

We get to the gate where the buses are parked and I turn to him. 'It was so good seeing you.'

'We're going to go home Amber. I'll have you home so soon, I promise.'

'I can't wait.' I smile.

'We could go now?'

My eyes widen. 'Now? We're 8 hours away... I can't... This is my job.'

'You're due to go on maternity within a matter of days. You don't even have anything planned here because you're touring. You need to start thinking about the baby... buying cribs and rockers. Do you even have any clothes for it yet?'