Stole my heart - Niall fanfic

Circles, we're going in circles

Zayns POV

I collapsed on my mattress, throwing my shirt angrily across the room.

I didn't think a girl could do this to me.

Ever!

And the fact I can't have her makes it even worse! 

I've lost my best friend, the sweetest girl ever and now my mind

If only I didn't have such a soft heart..

*knock knock*

I heard the gentle tap on the door and ignored it, continuing to sob into my pillow.

Whoever was at the door suddenly barged in and came to the side of the bed.

It was Niall.

His look went from a stong, we-need-to-talk-now look to a sympathetic look, as if his heart had broken and melted on the spot.

He sat on the edge of the bed, carefully not sitting on my legs. He looked me in the eye, his blue eyes twinkling.

I burst into tears again, bawling like a baby - great for my 'hard man' image!

I closed my eyes, not wanting to see his reaction, none of the boys had EVER seen me like this and this probably came as a big shock to him.

He swallowed and I opened my eyes, managing to fight the tears.

He was wearing a tux, tie missing,  his elbows rested on his knees and hands held together. His hair was perfectly messy as always, his head bent low, staring at the ground. I could make out a tear rolling down his cheek.

Why? Why was I doing this to him?

 I sat myself up, wiping away the last tears that were scattered on my face. I swung my legs round so I was perched on the edge of the bed next to him.

He sat himself up looking at me, a slight smile on his face.

"Zayn, I-"

"No, Niall I think I need to go first."

I took a deep breath, my arms resting on my trackies. I could see in the corner of my eye he was looking at me, trying not to cry just like me.

"Look Niall, what I did was unforgiveable and if you don't forgive me, I will completely understand why. But I do want you to know that I'm happy for you and Sophie, your amazing together, and I just need to sort myself out that's all.....I'm sorry Niall..."

I choked out the last line, looking straight into his eyes before bursting into tears again.

Niall smiled and pulled me into an unexpected hug. I started to sob into his tux, personally I prefered his polos as they were softer, but then he said something that shocked me.

"Zayn, I was never mad, I could never be"

I pulled out the hug and gave him a confused look.

"But, what about what I did? I kissed your girlfriend Niall!"

He smiled at me.

"I was never mad that you kissed her; I was mad that you never came to speak to me about it but now I know why you didn't, you were too busy being angry at yourself. Zayn, you are and always will be one of my best friends and knwoing her, Sophie will be cool with you too so please don't punsih yourself anymore."